and I'm horrified at how much victim blaming øystein has gotten over the years

no matter how the system puts pressure on them all, no matter what disorders and cognitive distortions varg suffers, and no matter how øystein treats him, varg is responsible for managing his actions.
there is no excuse for murder. violence is the fault of the one who commits it.

he was used to toxic interactions with everyone and didn’t care about the feelings of the impulsive bass player with the protagonist syndrome who didn’t like it. and this statement of desire to torture, if it existed, was probably repeated as a matter of course to all the bandmates

the lack of initiative and disorganization of his bandmates.

but as I graduated from college and got older, I began to understand øystein more and more. yes, he lived in toxic times in a toxic culture and by trying to be more brutal, he made it even more toxic in the metal scene. but at the same time he was sick of poverty, the lack of demand for his music,

so I used to associate myself with varg and thought that I understood him in this situation. that he found the strength to speak out against the abuser, whose power in the band and in the underground scene was greater than his, and this led to murder.

an excellent student, the director’s niece, and he would not get anything for it.
and the design teacher “jokingly” threatened to kill each of us for missing deadlines.
I was infuriated by this imbalance of power, that I could not answer them with the same threats or yell at them.

as a student, I myself was subjected to long-term abuse from teachers, some of whom were significant figures in the art community. I was very impulsive and suspicious and I was afraid that if I started a fight, it could lead to murder. moreover, the sculpture teacher directly said that he could kill

"this brother was unlucky" do not remove responsibility from varg and do not make hints that could be read as victim blaming