A poem I wrote:

Someone asked me once,
"You've been thrown into the deep end. Do you feel like you swam?"

It was in a different context,
but I've applied it to my life.

I'm forced to swim through all of my trauma
and resist the urge to drown

I'm treading through the water
keeping myself afloat

"asking for someone else's assurance even though you know you are good at what you do."

damn... okay, didn't need to call me out like that.a

"Every step I take is another mistake to you."

"I'm becoming this, all I want to do is be more like me and less like you."

What I wish so much I could just tell my mother. But I know it'd be wasting my breath.

Processing trauma is listening to lyrics rather than the beat of a song.

my roommate and friends all left for break and now im alone at the dorms😭😭

when he's drunk or I'm drunk or we're both drunk, we do couple-y things. We cuddle, he jokes about kissing me, and I joke back, we flirt, and we laugh. Then, the next day, we're sober, and we're back to just talking in the hallway, standing a few feet away from each other. I wish it was more.

Ban fake pockets, not books!

healing is planning a secret santa with everyone on your floor in your dorm building, listening to christmas music, and enjoying everyone's company. I think it gave me the Christmas I wished I had every year growing up.

My roommate got me a pen, a sticker, and an AO3 pin for Christmas, it really is the simple things.

I need a week to heal from the heartbreaking book I just read that didn't have a happy ending. WDYM a ghost possessed the MC to play a basketball game with the daughter he never got to meet bcs he DIED before she was born? SOBBING

marvel fans are so unserious. Wdym I just saw a Nick Fury/ Goose ship fanfic.

I hate making new accounts and going through finding posts to like to set up your algorithm. Wdym it doesn't automatically know what I like

Looking for mutuals, about me:

19
he/him/his
🏳️‍🌈transmasc
🏳️‍🌈pansexual
🦸‍♂️marvel nerd
📖likes reading and writing (please give me book recs)
📱chronically online
😂funny asf (or so i'm told)

MCU Filming Updates:

Vision-February '25 (UK)
Daredevil: Born Again S2- February through June '25 (NYC)
Avengers: Doomsday-Spring '25 (UK)
Spider-Man 4-August '25 (UK)
Untitled Film-Fall '25 (UK)
Avengers: Secret Wars-Spring '26 (UK)

My about me card (shield personnel file)

shay-shield-file.carrd.co