honestly if i didnt mess things up with her maybe i could actually be happy right now.. but i always mess upppp i don't blame herr i just blame myself for being a blind idiot. i miss her a lot but we barely knew eachother so idk why im like this. fuck this man

im so cooked i cant even get a like on tinder man..... im destined to be some sort of loner

i hate myself i hate life i hate this. i ruin everything my life never gets better it never will. no one cares about me i dont exist to anyone. i hate life so much

life just gets worse with every day... aaarghhh when will the pain enddddd

i feel selfish for like getting upset when i see couples on valenties day its like im jealous or something aargh

yay its the best day tomorrow which reminds me of my eternal loneliness yipeeeeee

i hate that i get attached to people too quickly and end up coming across as weird without meaning to. i just wish i could apologise and not always have attachment issues. like ugh i dont even mean to its just im such an idiot i ruined everything

i just feel like a complete failure all the time all i do is dissappoint or annoy people

i hate myself so much for messing up all the tine... i just wish i could speak to you again and try and be better. its my fault for not asking your feelings.