I’m probably going to delete this.

I know this is probably unwise to post, but when you spend years hitting your head against a brick wall, it’s hard to think of wise decisions.

Then constantly getting rejections and closed doors, always without any feedback to work on, often without any notice or explanation whatsoever.

It’s always framed as though it’s no reflection on me, but if it’s always happening, surely it must be? Am I insane? Genuinely?!

I just don’t know if I’m built for this. Over a decade and a half trying to make this career happen.

Always getting feedback that my work is at least above average, if not exceptional. Few notes, if any.

Only after the ambiguity resolves on its own, do people tell me “well, you probably should’ve known from the silence.”

How am I meant to distinguish between the two scenarios? Why can’t people just tell me what I’m doing wrong?

And I get that “silence” and “no reply” are their own form of feedback. But if I treat “no reply” as a negative response, people tell me I’m being paranoid, maybe they’re bad at replying, they’re probably busy, don’t read too much into it.

But how am I meant to improve when everything I submit gets praise? When no one offers critique or feedback? No one tells me what I’m doing wrong, or that there’s even anything wrong at all, even when I directly ask.

And I’m totally fine if they looked at all the writers and decided I was the worst, or among the worst. I almost certainly have room to improve.

Email in Jan asking about the next season. No reply. Follow up a week later. Still no reply.

Find out today I didn’t get rehired when I was accidentally CC’d on a call sheet. Turns out the budget was slightly reduced, so they’ve got less writers this season. And no one told me.

Spent 6 months writing on a TV show last year. First time doing TV. Constant praise, great feedback, get told at the wrap party by host and head writer that they “can’t wait” to have me back. “You’re a natural, I’m so glad we reached out and hired you.”

Tell me more 🤔

I haven’t! Synopsis sounds good though

Unfortunately the music isn’t on Spotify??! Trans erasure!

Blacksheep is real good, but I’m after originals, not covers (even though it’s Metric covering themselves with Brie Larson vocals)

If anyone’s worried about good CEOs getting killed, I’ve got an algorithm to sort that out