i feel like im losing everything

thats literally how the fucking conversation went

"yeah ive been having an extremely hard time coping with the fact that my long term partner assaulted me and the exhibited other abusive behavior out of seemingly nowhere."
"wow that must have been scary. anyways"

i cannot handle this anymore but i dont wNt to lose him

its not helping

i wish that had never happened to me

everything fucking sucks roght now and i cant see ot getting better. i wish things had gone differently

im so lucky hes still with me

i got triggered pretty badly yesterday and i think its causing me to relapse