Also I have other shit I want to do in the morning. I shouldn't be responsible for another grown ass adult.

Wreck doing that dumb shit. Maybe going back to driving school will fucking help you not be a fucking idiot and assume everybody around you can read your fucking mind. Imma start calling in license plates for reckless driving.

Oh such a happy old man 😭😭😭🥰🥰🥰

(I used to trace a BUNCH as a kid and then started free handing one day. I'd recommend tracing as much shit as possible WITHOUT posting it and then free hand once you feel comfortable enough with your shapes)

Continue to do exactly this and never notice that you're actually improving 👍🏾

Without those experiences.

I'm doing a lot more things and even doing some alone. I'm proud of myself for even stepping outside. I'm so glad I didn't develop severe agoraphobia because I "didn't like the hood rats on our street". I went to cons, had fun, made friends. I'm without them now but I cannot imagine where I'd be now

I don't want to be stuck anymore. I don't wanna be sad and alone in a house full of people. I don't want to HAVE to interact when I don't want to. I don't want to want to do something with someone and be told no every. Single. Time. But if I say no, I'm a horrible sister/daughter. I'm done.

Never said they were proud. I don't think I've said I love you to my mom once. I don't think I've ever heard her say it to me nor my sister, but always to my dad. My dad stopped saying it once I became a teen. For some reason decided when I left that I should "know". Now it's "you need to come home"

Im sorry I keep complaining about this but man.. I think I've been enmeshed into my family. They shouldn't be so fucking scared that I'm not with them 24/7 they shouldn't be fucking scared of my sister leaving. I'm so glad I'm out but so much to unlearn and unpack. I really need therapy.

I don't wanna come visit every fucking day. I don't wanna drive across town to be fucking overstimulated and berated for an hr or longer. It's so fucking uncomfortable over there and I only go over there to see Athena and Ebony (the dog they have left to neglect). I just want my baby.

I'm doing everything wrong and right at the same time. It's so confusing. I think once Athena is here I'll be okay but like... My family keeps making me feel bad and I just honestly do not want contact with them anymore. They make me feel like I'm doing something wrong just because-

Plus the fact I would be not making money that whole time that I drove up there. But hey at least I don't got to do it anymore.

They also cannot do that while I'm still on the lease so....... Yeah will be calling somebody if they tell me my rents more then it's supposed to be.