Poetry from my journal about my life
Depression, dysphoria, vulnerability when I try to hide it
To rest
On someone
My brain and body
Go quiet around
To rest
On someone
My brain and body
Go quiet around
there's
nothing left to flee to
I cannot disconnect,
I cannot leave,
I cannot be anywhere but
Here
and here is unbearable
I break again
and my light is broken:
there exists nothing
but a chaotic night.
there's
nothing left to flee to
I cannot disconnect,
I cannot leave,
I cannot be anywhere but
Here
and here is unbearable
I break again
and my light is broken:
there exists nothing
but a chaotic night.
nothing more.
i have to
accept
just
this.
but the hands I called for you with
are burning -
I wish
I could sever every limb
that could not
and cannot
work enough to reach you.
nothing more.
i have to
accept
just
this.
but the hands I called for you with
are burning -
I wish
I could sever every limb
that could not
and cannot
work enough to reach you.