Elara 🦋
@ameninademel.bsky.social
EDNOS/ana ᡣ𐭩 not new to ed and dni fatphobia ᡣ𐭩 pro recovery and c: 39kg l: 36kg ᡣ𐭩
🦋 18 years old 🦋 auDHD 🦋
🦋 18 years old 🦋 auDHD 🦋
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it's crazy how bsky needs to verify my age now... and chat control is going to come after all of the european ed community
September 23, 2025 at 11:50 AM
it's crazy how bsky needs to verify my age now... and chat control is going to come after all of the european ed community
finally moved into my uni accommodation, im going to use my broke budget as an excuse to not eat
im so sick of this shit i just don't wanna deal with anything anymore and wanna go back to how it was before
im so sick of this shit i just don't wanna deal with anything anymore and wanna go back to how it was before
September 23, 2025 at 11:49 AM
finally moved into my uni accommodation, im going to use my broke budget as an excuse to not eat
im so sick of this shit i just don't wanna deal with anything anymore and wanna go back to how it was before
im so sick of this shit i just don't wanna deal with anything anymore and wanna go back to how it was before
I've been wanting to relapse so bad. I recovered basically, but now the thoughts won't leave me alone again and everything was so much better when it was 'bad'. I want it all back.
August 27, 2025 at 11:32 PM
I've been wanting to relapse so bad. I recovered basically, but now the thoughts won't leave me alone again and everything was so much better when it was 'bad'. I want it all back.
how was the last thing i wrote on here a rant
anyways a LOT has happened in my life since then somehow
anyways a LOT has happened in my life since then somehow
January 23, 2025 at 9:47 AM
how was the last thing i wrote on here a rant
anyways a LOT has happened in my life since then somehow
anyways a LOT has happened in my life since then somehow
if im thin maybe they think about me more and maybe i look prettier and maybe im more noticeable and maybe i feel like there's a thing going right in my life and maybe i don't have to cry about not fitting in anymore if i actually like myself
January 12, 2025 at 3:45 PM
if im thin maybe they think about me more and maybe i look prettier and maybe im more noticeable and maybe i feel like there's a thing going right in my life and maybe i don't have to cry about not fitting in anymore if i actually like myself
my entire life ive dreamt of just fitting in and the right people coming to me if i just put myself out there and do my hobbies and live my life happily and i keep waiting but people never show up and i keep feeling like a fool for having faith even though this is the right thing to have
January 12, 2025 at 3:43 PM
my entire life ive dreamt of just fitting in and the right people coming to me if i just put myself out there and do my hobbies and live my life happily and i keep waiting but people never show up and i keep feeling like a fool for having faith even though this is the right thing to have
i think they're all pretending and if they knew me in real life then they'd run as fast as they could
January 12, 2025 at 3:40 PM
i think they're all pretending and if they knew me in real life then they'd run as fast as they could
i have one day to get my life fixed and if i dont, everything is going to shit involuntarily and it's not an exaggeration but in fact the reality that i have tried to avoid for weeks now
January 12, 2025 at 3:36 PM
i have one day to get my life fixed and if i dont, everything is going to shit involuntarily and it's not an exaggeration but in fact the reality that i have tried to avoid for weeks now
how are they all this pretty having lives and im forced to hate myself and forget everything and make zero money and have no romantic relationships like tf
January 12, 2025 at 3:34 PM
how are they all this pretty having lives and im forced to hate myself and forget everything and make zero money and have no romantic relationships like tf
um i may have just eaten like 500 calories of fat
chat am i cooked
chat am i cooked
January 12, 2025 at 3:31 PM
um i may have just eaten like 500 calories of fat
chat am i cooked
chat am i cooked
if only people knew that this place isn't plain triggering and is comfort
January 12, 2025 at 1:17 AM
if only people knew that this place isn't plain triggering and is comfort
lalalalalaallakaklala i hate gaining after giving in
January 12, 2025 at 1:16 AM
lalalalalaallakaklala i hate gaining after giving in
i achieved until i ate
January 12, 2025 at 1:15 AM
i achieved until i ate
i have realised caterpillarsky kept me in check because ive eaten lots since ive been gone
January 12, 2025 at 1:14 AM
i have realised caterpillarsky kept me in check because ive eaten lots since ive been gone
unfortunately these have been a horrible three weeks but at least i have hope
January 12, 2025 at 1:13 AM
unfortunately these have been a horrible three weeks but at least i have hope
I HAVE RETURNED my mother literally took my phone and laptop from me
January 12, 2025 at 1:12 AM
I HAVE RETURNED my mother literally took my phone and laptop from me
omg just did my first skircle now 💪
December 27, 2024 at 4:52 PM
omg just did my first skircle now 💪
oh and guys if i like your trauma vent posts then it's me GIVING LOVE not liking your pain !! i swear
December 27, 2024 at 4:36 PM
oh and guys if i like your trauma vent posts then it's me GIVING LOVE not liking your pain !! i swear
oh thank god i don't think she ordered me anything im fine
December 27, 2024 at 4:34 PM
oh thank god i don't think she ordered me anything im fine
im torn between a cutesy comforting teddy bear home aesthetic, a coquette 90s type of aesthetic and a dark grunge/gothic aesthetic and my mother is laughing in my face because i told her to give me space never fucking mind...!! i can't even plan my dream house in peace oh my
December 27, 2024 at 4:33 PM
im torn between a cutesy comforting teddy bear home aesthetic, a coquette 90s type of aesthetic and a dark grunge/gothic aesthetic and my mother is laughing in my face because i told her to give me space never fucking mind...!! i can't even plan my dream house in peace oh my
im gonna design my dream home for fun as the comfort that i am clearly not receiving from a parental figure!
December 27, 2024 at 4:27 PM
im gonna design my dream home for fun as the comfort that i am clearly not receiving from a parental figure!
I am restricted in my own home and i just need freedom and happiness and friends and my fashion and my life to myself and i just need to move out.
December 27, 2024 at 4:26 PM
I am restricted in my own home and i just need freedom and happiness and friends and my fashion and my life to myself and i just need to move out.
I haven't eaten anything today yet and im not planning on it unless she got me something and ill just have liquids if anything to make up for yesterday
December 27, 2024 at 4:17 PM
I haven't eaten anything today yet and im not planning on it unless she got me something and ill just have liquids if anything to make up for yesterday
I know it's wrong for everything im putting here but i just don't have an outlet and in fact she's supposed to be that outlet and she isn't...
December 27, 2024 at 4:14 PM
I know it's wrong for everything im putting here but i just don't have an outlet and in fact she's supposed to be that outlet and she isn't...
im not trying to disrespect her or anything i just dont understand why she can't consider me and my issues for once? she thought forcing me into recovery would fix everything and then she does things like this after insulting me enough to push me into my ed again? and then she claims im accusing her
December 27, 2024 at 4:11 PM
im not trying to disrespect her or anything i just dont understand why she can't consider me and my issues for once? she thought forcing me into recovery would fix everything and then she does things like this after insulting me enough to push me into my ed again? and then she claims im accusing her