And tell you to never give me anything again because it dosent fix how I feel even though I know that’s not what their trying to do and they aren’t even doing it to gain anyth ng there just being sweet to me and I can’t wven stomach it without wanting to be mean or claw at myself

And my brain starts shutting down and it’s either I force myself to fix it to I can be included or I keep myself away long enough and isolate to see them exclude me once or twice more and I can prove to myself it doesn’t hurt like I feel it does and I can handle not being dependent on the

I feel like part of my own hesitancy is getting out of an awful relationship about half a year ago that messed me up a wee bit. I’d be in the same boat with anyone really and I just don’t feel comfortable dating when I’m scared of it going wrong, not really any one else’s issue to mend.

In the aftermath of that and how confused he’d be and I can’t do that to him either, stuck in an uncomfortable limbo of yearning but not having. Caring but not asking for the same care back, I just sorta hope I move on sooner or later, it feels embarrassing to want more.

Thank you! Oh my goodness I appreciate the compliment:)

Thank you x33!!!

+ Alternative version with kissy marks! 💕

AWHH you drew them so cute!! They look like they don’t have a single thought in their silly brain such a carefree little lad!! Your art styles adorable:3

Doodle a Mareep! One of my favorite Pokemon their so so silly and fluffy :p

Tbh I head-cannon that Azi has a lazy eye maybe I’m just projecting though.