learning that I'm apparently whiny when I'm in this state doesn't help either

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my heart just hurts constantly. I want to die.

actually going insane that my best piece ever is going to reach like no one because it's """suggestive"""

the crushing weight of bearing all the financial burdens and always putting yourself last

"Jenna you never buy yourself anything you need to treat yourself more" they say as if every scrap of disposable income I've ever had hasn't been put into this horrible house I didn't want or taking care of those I love

keeping my eyes and ears open for any opportunities that I can send your way 💜

nah you nailed it

wanting anything for myself is a selfish endeavor and I need to give up

lmfao the gender-affirming bikini i waited for all summer arrived and doesn't fit because my freak proportions apparently don't align with their size-checker so awesome

I'm unhappy with the progress of my creative and personal pursuits and still hate everything I make. All my time and energy go toward a never-ending loop of working entirely too much and maintaining a home. Anything I try to do for myself is a struggle. I can't even put in new earrings right. lol.

I know I'm not amazing at what i do or anything and maybe it's thinking about it the wrong way, but getting *some kind* of audience would at least be a little validating

like ultimately I make art for me, my friends, and for fun, but continuously posting into the void is a little demoralizing