And I do hope this reaches all of you, my lovelies, because I want you all to know that even if I'm not streaming, I'm still here, I'm still creating, and I'm looking forward to seeing where we all go from here.

I'm not graduating or disappearing, but I am choosing the path I feel fits how I need to function.

Streaming is there, but I will be reworking how I do it, collabs will be there, but I may just choose to participate without streaming.

So, I'm going to focus on the stuff that makes me happy, the stuff that makes me not feel so bone tired. The stuff that allows me to freely get up and wander, or even just to go outside and work.

Breaks help, but ultimately I still feel drained and sometimes I feel disappointed in myself for not being "quirky" or "goofy" or even upset because I feel like I'm not "emoting" enough despite the fact that I'm in pain and grimacing behind the camera.

While I love streaming, it's hard for me to sit at a desk, locked down in one spot. It physically starts to hurt after about an hour and after two it's so hard for me to sit still and focused that I struggle to function, I get snappy and irritated, or sometimes I'm just trying not to cry.

I've come to realize that I feel more attached to the things I can create and work on physically with my hands, as well as my digital projects that I can see later on out in the world.

I've made this choice after taking on the creation of my new design studio, as well as my first ever craft booth, and creative restoration project.

XD you aren't wrong