kinda wish the album art embedded better but we ball lolz

YEAH IT WON LIKE THREE GEOFFY AWARDS

i wish that trans people could be themselves and not have to do the dance or be the cannon fodder for unresolved generational baggage from a dying era clinging to any modicum of control left.

I'm tired.

but we're still here, despite everything.

thanks for being alive, proud of y'all. 💜

I'm getting off track. the crux of the thought is that I wish that trans/queer culture wasn't so much inherently seen as a white thing.

I think a lot about how I've seen my fellow trans women of color and mixed race being the most mistreated, played for a joke while also being resigned to the group therapist or even the easy lay. and the disposable nature we're given by not "picking a struggle" so to speak.

transition showed me the depths of cruelty and the cliffs of kindness, when love becomes conditional and even transactional. and this isn't limited to being queer, it's absolutely intersectional with race. trans women are victims of misogyny, but nobody talks about it unless the victim is white.

in short. sometimes there's a part of me that wishes I was the cool kind of trans instead of the scary kind. the sort that gets praised in art circles for being brave and transgressive, and not the kind that gets side eye glances for not talking like the one type of white girl voice training.

art, lifestyle and especially the microcosms of internet personas.

surely something to be said on a broader scale about how gender norms being "removed*" really makes things set to other biases. namely, race and class. and how a community tends to turn inward on itself.

i prolly have the "fucked up little freak" label coming tbh

still only drop like 2 gold and maybe like 10xp, BUT I have 0.01% chance drop rate of a broken longsword

making you an accessory to tomfoolery and hijinks