In short... "I want out!"
www.youtube.com/watch?v=FjV8...

I feel trapped here. I need to get out. I hate Muncie, I hate Indiana. To me its a prison. Breaking free of this place, will force me to break away from my family. I need to do it. I need to put up my own boundaries, but also break free from my own boundaries.

My problem is... I don't know if I can build a community in Indiana. Or in my hometown. People... don't care. There are very little mutual aid groups. Some of them exist, and I do want to help my communities, but I feel it won't be enough.

Liberalism has shown its inefficiencies to actually stand up to fascism. Libertarianism, which I held on to for way too long before and after college was also never truly a philosophy I could follow. It was with anarchism that I found my answers.

They claim I was radicalized by college. That isn't the case. I was radicalized my capitalism. Going to work. Seeing the divisions. I have seen more inequality and more apathy of other people working after college than I saw in college. It wasn't college, but real life that showed me.

I feel like shouting to the void. I know many of my friends who care. I've always said my friends are more of my family than my flesh and blood, and I think at this moment its even more true.

I may have did wrong when I called out my family. I was rude of me. I get that. I can make peace with myself that I instigated that fight. But, I feel so powerless right now. People I care about are being hurt, and will only get worse. My family don't care. They only care about their grocery prices.