She sounds kinda demanding.

Lately people really like to say that lying down quietly is almost as good as actually sleeping. It absolutely is not. I am enraged about this. Whatever study this is based on was bunk. My brain is disintegrating.

There's something that sounds really exhausting about religious delusions! Maybe I'm just tired though...

Probably makes sense. I don't think it's hypomania, I don't feel THAT good. Anyway. Got to kick the brain from the sleep direction again. I'm SO tired. Wellbutrin gives me palpitations & skipped beats when I'm trying to sleep. But it makes me not want to die. So. I'm going to have to take that.

I kick mine from about 4 directions and have managed to find a regime that really helps with the depression. For some reason if my mood improves to the extent that it's almost at normal levels, then I can't sleep. Always happens. Does this mean I can't be happy if I'm actually processing life?

you're right, I SHOULD get some zopiclone.
(monkey brains, they're too complicated - strip back at least 3 layers of consciousness and abstraction)

All provisionally booked but the top left, I'm drawing a lot more though!

So, hopefully my arm doesn't fall off, & I'll start advertising and designing a bit more soon. But if you'd like to book in and you can do a Wednesday, let me know. If you need touch ups I will accommodate those at some point as well, I might just need to slot them in around paid tattoos.

I'm resting my brain and shoulder, and then I'll look at booking some guest spots. And I've had 4 driving lessons, they're going well! I'm applying for a job and just realised some of the employment experience I'm talking about is TWENTY YEARS AGO

Will I still be skating whenever I can? Yes. Might seem crazy but it often helps - a lot of my problems (not all) are to do with muscle stiffness, myofascial trigger point pain that often requires basically violent intervention, guarding/tension, & RSI from repetitive fine motor movements.

But yeah I was telling people I needed a break and it turns out I really super did. Haven't had a chance to think about next steps for guest spots or new studio yet. Hopefully all these health flare ups will die back soon? I've been physically sick from pain twice. Not even the same pain/issues.

it was really good to hang out and I'm stoked with your head! friendship acquired