Gay fictional character that they squeal about. Can't I be happy about opening up nowadays? I hate it so much.

I felt safe talking to her about how I felt, but now I just feel like a new trend. Not a being with feelings, just that. And plus I feel like an accessory for others and they throw me out when they find something better.. I just want to talk to others freely while they treat me as a mortal, not a-

I feel comfortable with NO ONE except for my aunt to talk to personally, it's tiring to see your feelings just be another discussion for others to gossip. I can't even trust my teacher, I opened up as lesbian and I've had a suspicion she's been gossiping about me with other teachers..

And plus I'm not mentally prepared for everything, I've been inside for so long due to COVID and now I'm a failure. Why must I feel this way? "It's not a big issue" they say "it'll be finee" they say, my mother even mocks me for my mental health and I can't even bother talking about myself anymore.

I don't want to be bothersome for them.

I get it, I have online friends who comfort me, yeah, but the burden in my always stays because no one treats me the way they do... Love them all but I feel horrible regardless, and I don't want to reach out to anyone now because they have other issues, my feelings are just from small issues.

I always feel laughed at for not even knowing my own native language.. Why am I a dissapointment to those around me? I'm unmotivated to even do a simple task. I always get negative words thrown at times when I need comfort. I only have my aunt and my 2 friends irl to make me feel happy.

Using a more longer term for the subject they're writing about. It's probably just me and some group of people with perplexed thoughts regarding it, but who knows? Because I don't.