Just a pic from tonight walk
November 19, 2023 at 6:46 AM
Just a pic from tonight walk
Also, I tried stop smoking… I could only handle it 4 days 🤡
November 13, 2023 at 10:26 PM
Also, I tried stop smoking… I could only handle it 4 days 🤡
And btw in a few days I have an appointment with my psychiatrist aaaaaaaand I don’t know if he is going to inpatient me, or make me start day hospital again or what bc I’m too fucked up lately. Thank you H.
November 13, 2023 at 10:20 PM
And btw in a few days I have an appointment with my psychiatrist aaaaaaaand I don’t know if he is going to inpatient me, or make me start day hospital again or what bc I’m too fucked up lately. Thank you H.
I’m so tired, I only slept 4 hours yesterday and tomorrow I have to wake up around 6.30 am 🥲 hate this.
November 13, 2023 at 10:15 PM
I’m so tired, I only slept 4 hours yesterday and tomorrow I have to wake up around 6.30 am 🥲 hate this.
I shoud start collecting this shit, i think at this point i would have more than 150
November 3, 2023 at 2:10 AM
I shoud start collecting this shit, i think at this point i would have more than 150
The anxiety is killing me.
October 28, 2023 at 6:00 PM
The anxiety is killing me.
Today in therapy I understood that I keep getting into abusive relationships just to revive trauma because with every abuse I kinda forget for a moment the abuse I went through before, but in the end, I am creating a tower of trauma for sx abuse that it’s eating me alive and making me more depressed
October 25, 2023 at 11:07 PM
Today in therapy I understood that I keep getting into abusive relationships just to revive trauma because with every abuse I kinda forget for a moment the abuse I went through before, but in the end, I am creating a tower of trauma for sx abuse that it’s eating me alive and making me more depressed
Literally I’m really a mess, people tend to leave because they get tired of all of my shit.
And I try not to show any of my symptoms but sometimes is so obvious.
I’m feeling a bit like the joker right now not gonna lie.
And I try not to show any of my symptoms but sometimes is so obvious.
I’m feeling a bit like the joker right now not gonna lie.
October 19, 2023 at 4:14 AM
Literally I’m really a mess, people tend to leave because they get tired of all of my shit.
And I try not to show any of my symptoms but sometimes is so obvious.
I’m feeling a bit like the joker right now not gonna lie.
And I try not to show any of my symptoms but sometimes is so obvious.
I’m feeling a bit like the joker right now not gonna lie.
I should leave drugs. But what a disappointment to go back with that shit to my therapist. Like I go up two steps and down like five. I’m literally a fucking clown.
Well I have to say tho that things have been really difficult lately. I’m a mess (thats why I don’t have friends lmao no one likes me)
Well I have to say tho that things have been really difficult lately. I’m a mess (thats why I don’t have friends lmao no one likes me)
October 19, 2023 at 4:11 AM
I should leave drugs. But what a disappointment to go back with that shit to my therapist. Like I go up two steps and down like five. I’m literally a fucking clown.
Well I have to say tho that things have been really difficult lately. I’m a mess (thats why I don’t have friends lmao no one likes me)
Well I have to say tho that things have been really difficult lately. I’m a mess (thats why I don’t have friends lmao no one likes me)
I literally haven’t slept in two nights. And I don’t feel like dying. What’s going on?
October 19, 2023 at 4:02 AM
I literally haven’t slept in two nights. And I don’t feel like dying. What’s going on?
I had a big fight over the phone with my progenitor yesterday. It was about I am pro Palestine freedom and he is basically an asshole who stand with Israel.
He basically disinherit me.
He basically disinherit me.
October 18, 2023 at 5:31 PM
I had a big fight over the phone with my progenitor yesterday. It was about I am pro Palestine freedom and he is basically an asshole who stand with Israel.
He basically disinherit me.
He basically disinherit me.
I just bought an Olympus trip 35. And I’m loving it. I’m getting more and more into analogue photography
October 16, 2023 at 7:13 PM
I just bought an Olympus trip 35. And I’m loving it. I’m getting more and more into analogue photography
I’m feeling so sick, I didn’t want to wake up today, I just need fastest day time. Or take more benzos idk.
October 8, 2023 at 11:57 AM
I’m feeling so sick, I didn’t want to wake up today, I just need fastest day time. Or take more benzos idk.
It’s been so hard I don’t know why this shits keeps happening to me. I’m tired, traumatized, afraid.
I feel I can be with anyone anymore, I lost all my trust in people, even more in men.
I feel I can be with anyone anymore, I lost all my trust in people, even more in men.
October 8, 2023 at 5:45 AM
It’s been so hard I don’t know why this shits keeps happening to me. I’m tired, traumatized, afraid.
I feel I can be with anyone anymore, I lost all my trust in people, even more in men.
I feel I can be with anyone anymore, I lost all my trust in people, even more in men.
So, they gave me a lot of med to prevent std and they explored me, made a letter to go to the police to formalice the impeachment .
I’m so tired and traumatized, I’m literally suicidal I can’t do this anymore. It’s too much for me at this point (I have been raped before). I feel I can’t live anymore
I’m so tired and traumatized, I’m literally suicidal I can’t do this anymore. It’s too much for me at this point (I have been raped before). I feel I can’t live anymore
October 8, 2023 at 5:42 AM
So, they gave me a lot of med to prevent std and they explored me, made a letter to go to the police to formalice the impeachment .
I’m so tired and traumatized, I’m literally suicidal I can’t do this anymore. It’s too much for me at this point (I have been raped before). I feel I can’t live anymore
I’m so tired and traumatized, I’m literally suicidal I can’t do this anymore. It’s too much for me at this point (I have been raped before). I feel I can’t live anymore
They are starting all the police process, a forensic is going to see me.
October 8, 2023 at 1:05 AM
They are starting all the police process, a forensic is going to see me.
Police came, they confirmed that it was a rape. And they encouraged me to report him. They also saw a text message where he accepted what he did.
I’m living a nightmare.
I’m living a nightmare.
October 7, 2023 at 11:45 PM
Police came, they confirmed that it was a rape. And they encouraged me to report him. They also saw a text message where he accepted what he did.
I’m living a nightmare.
I’m living a nightmare.
I’m in the ER, they are going to make me tests for std
October 7, 2023 at 11:13 PM
I’m in the ER, they are going to make me tests for std
BIG TW!!!
I was dating a guy, yesterday he came to my home to sleep. Of course things happened and then we went to sleep.
This morning I wake up with him doing THAT to me. Yes, he fucking raped me while I was sleeping. I froze for a moment and then I kick him off.
He knew I was raped before and he
I was dating a guy, yesterday he came to my home to sleep. Of course things happened and then we went to sleep.
This morning I wake up with him doing THAT to me. Yes, he fucking raped me while I was sleeping. I froze for a moment and then I kick him off.
He knew I was raped before and he
October 7, 2023 at 9:02 PM
BIG TW!!!
I was dating a guy, yesterday he came to my home to sleep. Of course things happened and then we went to sleep.
This morning I wake up with him doing THAT to me. Yes, he fucking raped me while I was sleeping. I froze for a moment and then I kick him off.
He knew I was raped before and he
I was dating a guy, yesterday he came to my home to sleep. Of course things happened and then we went to sleep.
This morning I wake up with him doing THAT to me. Yes, he fucking raped me while I was sleeping. I froze for a moment and then I kick him off.
He knew I was raped before and he
Therapy was so hard today I really couldn’t stop my symptoms. I just want my brain to shut up, I can’t deal with this anymore. I’m so frogged with alprazolam and quetiapine that I don’t actually know what would happen to me.
But fuck living with all this mental illness is so fucking shitty.
But fuck living with all this mental illness is so fucking shitty.
October 2, 2023 at 5:54 PM
Therapy was so hard today I really couldn’t stop my symptoms. I just want my brain to shut up, I can’t deal with this anymore. I’m so frogged with alprazolam and quetiapine that I don’t actually know what would happen to me.
But fuck living with all this mental illness is so fucking shitty.
But fuck living with all this mental illness is so fucking shitty.
I would really talk about tlp (bpd in English) and destigmatize all the shit it’s around it. Around US.
October 2, 2023 at 3:58 PM
I would really talk about tlp (bpd in English) and destigmatize all the shit it’s around it. Around US.
I have to walk my dog but I took too many aplrazolams that i think I’m gonna faint any moment now. Fuck TLP and its fuckings syntoms. Fuck thing is that I wanna continue taking them, it’s like, until I’m not fucking in rock bottom I can’t stop. Fuck this illness.
October 2, 2023 at 3:54 PM
I have to walk my dog but I took too many aplrazolams that i think I’m gonna faint any moment now. Fuck TLP and its fuckings syntoms. Fuck thing is that I wanna continue taking them, it’s like, until I’m not fucking in rock bottom I can’t stop. Fuck this illness.
I don’t know if it’s only me but the days I have therapy I can’t do anything else, it’s like my hole mental energy disappears and I only want to sleep, and I know I should try to do things to disconnect and try to relax but it’s so removing that I only need my Xanax to survive the day.
October 2, 2023 at 1:50 PM
I don’t know if it’s only me but the days I have therapy I can’t do anything else, it’s like my hole mental energy disappears and I only want to sleep, and I know I should try to do things to disconnect and try to relax but it’s so removing that I only need my Xanax to survive the day.