anyway, here i am with first world problems.

if i could just set the wake up alarm to never go off on my watch? i’d be happy.

but no, some dinglefart at apple is like, ohhh, we _must_ keep them connected if the user is wearing the watch.

i want to use my watch for sleep tracking but not being able to use the iphone as an alarm?

mediocre.

the one with you in the chair and your foot on their head… *keyboard smash goes here*

i’ve been meaning to mention that these are the tiktok shortened urls and they tend to expire (on top of telling tiktok who opens them if they’re logged in). not sure if that’s a concern you want to head off.

i’ve been like, "wait, did investors get swindled by perpetual motion machines again?"

we’ve not progressed as a species since traveling salesmen peddling cure alls and tonics. the stakes are higher, of course, but i don’t think that counts as progress.

in the meantime, i am definitely grateful for all the facets of my life that allow me to think and exist the way i do.

a long time ago, i realized that there wasn’t enough lifespan to learn everything i wanted to learn.

i’ve since learned it’s worse; eventually, in addition dwindling time, i have less energy to spread around.

youth truly is wasted on the young.

i’m certain i will come back to that thought.

i will get this part of my life back even if i have to construct it myself.

i’ll somehow learn to be compassionate with myself and the group in terms of my ideals.

because i’m so frequently very rigid about those and it is an obstacle.

i have so much to learn.

nonetheless, i miss being a demo/practice/stunt/test bottom.

one of the pains about distance from community i am comfortable sharing.

i think my favorite connection was with the group where i got to be 'space monkey.' nothing quite like someone wanting to test out an idea they had on me.

sigh.

happy for them, wherever they are, so long as it’s far from me.

also my favorite humans seem tired and quiet, too.

or maybe they’re still on that other site. i can’t blame them for gravitating to a larger audience. i just wish it weren’t owned and run by someone who’s basically peak trash.