and hopefully having more free time to work on stuff takes off that bit of pressure sucking the fun out of it for me at the moment and should lead to bigger and better videos, pretty exciting stuff!

SO, I recently got a new job that in the next couple months allows me to go hybrid HAZAR! meaning I'll only be in office 3 days compared to my current 5, it also has a later start which means I can edit later into the night! So, great news! I'll be able to focus more on YouTube going forward, woohoo

to release, I do wanna speed things up but I need to try and optimise making things, and gain a little love back, but works also impacting my video creation process, BUT THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS IS, I HAVE GOOD NEWS

(ACTUALLY IMPORTANT ONE/?)

The process and expectations of making videos has shaped a lot of how I make content these days, that feeling of "I can't make this video, it won't do well/be enjoyed" is something that drives me insane lol, and it's what slows my progress on YouTube a lot. So that's why my videos take so long (5/?)

YouTube has always taken up a major portion of my time, and I wouldn't have it any other way, but maybe one day I'll shift focus to something else, who knows. But going back to my original point before I went on a "sometimes I wanna quit but I won't quit" tangent I'm known for (4/?)

But I often wonder when the point will be that I settle down trying to grow and just move on from the whole YouTube thing. I don't think I will for a very long time, or maybe ever, but it's something I think about, I'm a guy with a lot of hobbies and passions (3/?)

Now this isn't to say I don't love making videos, I absolutely do, it's something I strive to actually do well at, but as times passing I do sometimes wonder how much longer I want to do YouTube, I've had this feeling on and off for about 2 years and I don't intend on quitting (2/?)