People have forgotten literary devices exist and can be used in other kinds of artistic expressions beyond literature and it shows.

Es muy parecido a Twitter así que en un momento te pones al día trasteando.

And it’s even worse when I’m supposed to be enjoying, living and experiencing and really looking forward to my birthday coming, but all I can seem to think about is how bad and useless of a person I am.

And I’ve been going to therapy for this but I feel like instead of moving forward I’m actually going backwards. As if everything that’s going on is confirming this belief that I’ve had engraved in me for a really long time.

And this is what’s happening right now. I cannot bring myself to fully enjoy the experiences I’m choosing to live while in the US because I feel those are resulting in other bad things happening. And, even if I do enjoy, then I’m left feeling emotionally drained and empty afterwards.

That has guided me and my actions for as long as I can remember and has stopped me from doing things, but also to feeling extremely guilty (and so angry and sad) when I did do things and something happened.

You don’t know the half of it…

Look, I don’t care you weren’t here at all today until late… 1am is not the time to be making so much noise. People are trying to sleep.

Ok, now I’m officially crying because my sister and cousin went to the show of one our fav bands from when we were younger (they’re also retiring) which we usually go together and they recorded some of the songs and sent those to me… so, clearly I’m crying while watching the videos.

Thank you for your message and love! Really appreciate it. Sending my love back at you!