*breaking*
This just in.
He failed to do it at the first opportunity.😘

Pps: I *always* have a reason for feeling the way I do. I’m not crazy even though I over react. I will not accept statements that delude my sanity.

I want to build. Just like everyone else. I may seem normal but please don’t put me on a pedestal. I am just me.

Finally. I know I have issues and I don’t want to be reminded. I’m *constantly* reminded of my uniqueness and don’t need to be more othered than I do to myself already. I just want to be normal. That’s it. I’m not. But I just want to belong despite my flaws.

going on the previous point, I have an unusual memory where I remember things vividly quite often or will remember points that I feel a person points out to be important. Work, school, wherever. I remember things I do with people and their likes. Just a thing to mention that I’ve noticed

I am working on that because I know it is frustrating to work with.

I remember alot of the things said, possibly due to trauma. Sometimes I’m wrong. If I know something is wrong, I *automatically* feel a compulsion to self correct and get scared when my error is pointed out. I’m used to less gentle hands around.

Please, if we get to a misunderstanding, don’t take away my community. I have *severe* abandonment wounds.

I know that I’m complicated. I still believe in my mind that I am a piece of shit that doesn’t deserve anything but I keep trying to get past that. I’m traumatized, damaged goods. Working on changing that.

Not pointed to emotional management. It is always “You. Are. A. Monster.” And it comes across as “this is how you will be controlled.”

That instead of feeling them and working them out, I’ve been encouraged by previous important people throughout my life (of who I’ve regarded their opinions as gospel) to get high, drunk, eat, sleep, and other things but to an extreme.

You guys don’t necessarily know that I have had situations where my emotions weren’t ok to feel.