I was afraid someone would find out I'm trans. I was afraid they'd try to hurt me. I was afraid it'd ruin friendships, the way it had when I was a teen, or ruin my writing career.

DID is so stigmitized and misunderstood, I'm really hoping to combat that.

But if I had bottom surgery, before I was aware of this disorder, it would've been devastating for my female alter. And I wasn't aware of this disorder until age 27. I transitioned at 14.
Transitioning saved my life, again. I am so happy I did. I still am. I just feel the need to speak about this.

Lastly, I will say, I have no intention of detransitioning. I am so grateful I was able to transition as a teen, because otherwise, I would have k---ed myself. This is a fact, DID or not.

I looked. I think that, if you're a follower of mine and you're reading this, and you're trans, and you have no memory of your childhood, inexplicable PTSD symptoms, and continuous memory loss, that's worth looking into. I wish I noticed sooner.

I want to concisely explain this process and document it. What troubles me is, I think there are other trans people out there with dissociative symptoms, who don't recognize it. I thought I was a trans man for years. I was BAFFLED when I began feeling dysphoric agaiin at how male

Then, nearly a year later, I was SAed, and that caused my protector, Wolff, to make himself known to me. And everything after that's just been a rapidly descending rabbit hole.

For most people, they don't begin realizing until later in life. I think, what caused this, was a horrendous, antisemitic and transphobic massage therapy appointment I had around age 26, where my therapist went on a Qanon rant for nearly an hour, I dissociated and began fawning.

And I can't even claim to be the original one, because looking back, I can clearly delineate the period in early adolescence I went from (birth name), female, artist to Aden, male, writer. So, I'm not the original. I'm just another alter.

Thanks, Melanie!!

Thanks, Amy!!

Thank you so much, Sam!! This wouldn't have been possible without you. So thrilled!!

I didn't! Thank you for telling me about them.

Where I don't have to worry about being hate-crimed. Where I can be myself. I don't make much from my books, but I'm at the point where the mental ramifications of living in a conservative area overweigh the cost benefits.