Adele Taylor (pthagonal)
@adeletaylor.bsky.social
Data analyst, dungeon master, depressive. A nerd and a nerdfighter. Cis bi woman. #NoLGBWithoutT
pthagonal on YouTube and elsewhere.
"Unfortunately, I have read a lot of books."
Views my own not that of my employer. She/her.
pthagonal on YouTube and elsewhere.
"Unfortunately, I have read a lot of books."
Views my own not that of my employer. She/her.
Organising things was supposed to make me less anxious not more dammit.
November 24, 2025 at 12:05 PM
Organising things was supposed to make me less anxious not more dammit.
Guess it's a Beef Day.
November 23, 2025 at 6:02 PM
Guess it's a Beef Day.
Emotions all over the place. I feel so fragile. I couldn't tell you what's wrong — just that everything is.
November 23, 2025 at 11:48 AM
Emotions all over the place. I feel so fragile. I couldn't tell you what's wrong — just that everything is.
Although I have finished my puzzle book so I'm starting to feel sad again.
Cried, napped, had hot drink, snacked lots. Bit less sad now.
November 21, 2025 at 9:09 PM
Although I have finished my puzzle book so I'm starting to feel sad again.
Cried, napped, had hot drink, snacked lots. Bit less sad now.
November 21, 2025 at 4:33 PM
Cried, napped, had hot drink, snacked lots. Bit less sad now.
Fffff....I suppose I had a run of good days I was bound to crash sooner or later
November 21, 2025 at 2:25 PM
Fffff....I suppose I had a run of good days I was bound to crash sooner or later
I am well aware of the irony in listening to a conversation about how core beliefs of "I'm worthless" and "I don't produce anything" are erroneous and having those exact negative thoughts but....
November 21, 2025 at 10:42 AM
I am well aware of the irony in listening to a conversation about how core beliefs of "I'm worthless" and "I don't produce anything" are erroneous and having those exact negative thoughts but....
It arrived! In time for this week's in-person session! It is a work of art!
November 17, 2025 at 6:41 PM
It arrived! In time for this week's in-person session! It is a work of art!
Wedding was amazing, slight issue getting home thanks to Storm Claudia but I have amazing friends so I'm being fed and getting a lift to my much delayed ferry, with a hotel room on the other side so I can grab a few hours sleep before I get a train.
November 15, 2025 at 4:51 PM
Wedding was amazing, slight issue getting home thanks to Storm Claudia but I have amazing friends so I'm being fed and getting a lift to my much delayed ferry, with a hotel room on the other side so I can grab a few hours sleep before I get a train.
Fit check.
November 14, 2025 at 1:12 PM
Fit check.
I think I am the most nervous I have ever been, but Dublin, here I come
November 13, 2025 at 7:58 AM
I think I am the most nervous I have ever been, but Dublin, here I come
Oh thanks, random youtube commenter - I'd forgotten mental illness suddenly goes away in middle age.
November 12, 2025 at 7:13 PM
Oh thanks, random youtube commenter - I'd forgotten mental illness suddenly goes away in middle age.
Gonna have to upgrade from "Terrible handwriting' to "BIG HAT" until my "DM Screen (Fancy)" arrives.
Real suggestions from Real RRD employees
November 8, 2025 at 3:44 PM
Gonna have to upgrade from "Terrible handwriting' to "BIG HAT" until my "DM Screen (Fancy)" arrives.
Not sure where flu ends and depression starts. Spent most of today in bed.
November 5, 2025 at 4:32 PM
Not sure where flu ends and depression starts. Spent most of today in bed.
I've been out of bed about twenty minutes and I'm already regretting it.
November 5, 2025 at 8:18 AM
I've been out of bed about twenty minutes and I'm already regretting it.
It's all very well saying "sadness and grief are normal emotions and part of a fully lived life" but repeatedly collapsing into tears just isn't helpful and it's hard to do any actual living when it keeps happening
November 4, 2025 at 4:36 PM
It's all very well saying "sadness and grief are normal emotions and part of a fully lived life" but repeatedly collapsing into tears just isn't helpful and it's hard to do any actual living when it keeps happening
Me: "I should continue my re-listen of The Anthropocene Reviewed"
Also me: "WHY AM I CRYING?!"
I never learn.
Also me: "WHY AM I CRYING?!"
I never learn.
November 4, 2025 at 8:51 AM
Me: "I should continue my re-listen of The Anthropocene Reviewed"
Also me: "WHY AM I CRYING?!"
I never learn.
Also me: "WHY AM I CRYING?!"
I never learn.
I should probably read Gatsby at some point y'know
November 4, 2025 at 8:36 AM
I should probably read Gatsby at some point y'know
You can tell I'm feeling better because the negative self talk has started up again
November 4, 2025 at 7:04 AM
You can tell I'm feeling better because the negative self talk has started up again
So far the worst thing about being ill is probably not having slept at all due to chills. But the second worst thing is definitely the god-awful ads YouTube keeps serving up.
November 2, 2025 at 3:16 PM
So far the worst thing about being ill is probably not having slept at all due to chills. But the second worst thing is definitely the god-awful ads YouTube keeps serving up.
This is what I get for procrastinating in getting vaccinated I guess.
November 2, 2025 at 10:31 AM
This is what I get for procrastinating in getting vaccinated I guess.
Had a good evening out with friends and then logged on to the internet this morning and was reminded I'm a terrible person so that's cool
November 1, 2025 at 9:08 AM
Had a good evening out with friends and then logged on to the internet this morning and was reminded I'm a terrible person so that's cool
I actually can't face watching either of this week's vlogbrothers videos.
I'm going to try and dry off from dog walk before heading into rain again to go meet people and hopefully forget how I'm useless, pathetic and should probably just give all my money away as that's all I can contribute
I'm going to try and dry off from dog walk before heading into rain again to go meet people and hopefully forget how I'm useless, pathetic and should probably just give all my money away as that's all I can contribute
October 31, 2025 at 4:58 PM
I actually can't face watching either of this week's vlogbrothers videos.
I'm going to try and dry off from dog walk before heading into rain again to go meet people and hopefully forget how I'm useless, pathetic and should probably just give all my money away as that's all I can contribute
I'm going to try and dry off from dog walk before heading into rain again to go meet people and hopefully forget how I'm useless, pathetic and should probably just give all my money away as that's all I can contribute
Fuck you brain, can I not just be glad people are doing good in the world without turning into all about me?
October 31, 2025 at 3:45 PM
Fuck you brain, can I not just be glad people are doing good in the world without turning into all about me?