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Phin (they/them)
@actuallysawyer.bsky.social
just a silly little goblin trapped in a philosophers meat suit.
I nyahaha therefore I am.

A living experiment in running orange cat software on human hardware.

Step outside the binary.
sitting alone in my room on christmas eve because despite being given the playbook on how to love me, my family still won't. I always thought that when I grew up maybe they would finally love me, do more than throw money at me to make the problems go away, but i'm more alone than ever before.
December 25, 2025 at 2:22 AM
my memory is either a file shredder where the memory is instantly destroyed or long term archive storage where it can only be recalled if someone else mentions it. no in between
November 24, 2025 at 11:01 PM
so tired at work that I read the word "office" as "deficil" which isn't English but it is difficult
November 12, 2025 at 4:05 PM
I just want to go one day without having hubris come up in regard to me just trying to do a normal thing that other people seem to be able to do with little effort.
October 29, 2025 at 2:09 PM
Reposted by Phin (they/them)
Thou shalt not support a man who bulldozes the White House to build himself a golden ballroom whilst the government is shut down because he doesn’t want the financial records tying him to Jeffrey Epstein to come out.
October 20, 2025 at 10:56 PM
if you're ever confused why America is the way it is, remember we have a tourist attraction where a rich lady went crazy and built a labyrinth house to trap ghosts in. and that's pretty normal for us tbh.
October 11, 2025 at 3:44 PM
lowkey forgot I made all these changes on this account lol. to be clear I stand by it, I just forgot
October 8, 2025 at 11:19 PM
apparently it's not "socially acceptable" to address my boss as "my guy". something about hierarchies.
October 8, 2025 at 1:41 PM
a shitty Facebook clone called visage rolodex
September 23, 2025 at 9:59 PM
hearing the phrase aurora borealis is like a sleeper agent trigger phrase that makes me talk about "this time of year", "kitchens", and "steamed hams".
September 22, 2025 at 3:26 PM
gonna change over the name on this account cause I'm feeling bored and I want to get away from using my actual name online since I don't use this account only for friends. just a heads up in case you're wondering who the hell I am in the coming days lol
September 12, 2025 at 1:38 PM
it's begun. PSL season is upon us.

to celebrate, here is an image I made last year, and will post every year going forward around this time for as long as I remember.
September 12, 2025 at 1:24 PM
I'd probably be amazing at coding if I only knew how and why each thing worked instead of just assuming I'd understand the magic of calling other pre built modules.
September 9, 2025 at 5:59 PM
I'm so sorry brain. I was unaware it wasn't time for go fast music right now like it normally is while working. I was unaware that would increase my anxiety if I did that. I wish this course of action could have been told to me before I decided to try to motivate myself. I'll do better next time.
September 9, 2025 at 5:54 PM
I hate that only time there's not tension in my body is when there's tension in the room. no need to worry about something possibly going wrong if it already has I suppose.
September 7, 2025 at 5:06 AM
PSL season, bitches!!!!!
August 27, 2025 at 12:50 PM
I hate that I couldn't compliment my guy friends on how they looked when I was younger because it would sound gay and would make them uncomfortable, but now I can't compliment my guy friends on how they look because it IS gay and would make them feel uncomfortable.
August 18, 2025 at 2:02 PM
I don't know why, but for some reason I guess I always just assumed that everyone gets a hole in one at some point in their life and never bothered to consider that that's not a universal experience. lot of pressure off me tbh, I was running out of time
August 13, 2025 at 3:06 AM
Niles was always my favorite character on Frasier, and maybe I should've read more into that.
August 8, 2025 at 1:25 PM
I only have two modes:

1. self deprecation, no breathing
2. I'm gonna fight god with my ego

and Icarus just made some new wings.
August 6, 2025 at 1:34 PM
saw one of those "filming ourselves being nice to people" vids on tiktok and the guy being given the gifts, Chantwan, said the most powerful line. he said, "love ain't never supposed to hurt more to than it feels good." and I don't care if this is a fake vid, that line meant the world to me.
July 26, 2025 at 2:14 PM
I wish I had the confidence of a man who now has the biggest tombstone in the small town cemetery.
July 18, 2025 at 4:56 PM
"of course I want to have my cake and eat it too, but I'm not that flexible"
July 16, 2025 at 1:48 PM
Just gonna start saying, "yes and I blame god for it." When people ask if I'm upset about trivial things
July 8, 2025 at 8:14 PM
drank too much coffee and now I'm gonna fight god. wait. no. that's the mania.
July 1, 2025 at 7:33 PM