My self-hatred runs deeper than your words have ever been,
I might wanna scar myself but your self-loathing it still wins.
You'll consume yourself entirely, crying I'll persist.

Self-sabotage flavored by bigot's laws, your perception's flaws refract, they cause cracks in the seams of my armor, hastily stitched together, I falter and wander through the roiling seas beneath my hard exterior.

I ache and cry away each night, I may sleep only here in my confines. Your warmth, your light, your purity, kept far away from me, incomplete.

Out on the streets I may roam, but there there is no place to call my own. A brief respite, the church bell tomes, I think it's time I head not-home.

Rest well and dream sweet,
while my tears stain your sheets.
'Cause no day is complete
without neurotic anxiety.

Merry Christmas to me.

I can't get enough of this dress

Gratification for selling my praise kink for your adoration
I hate being patient don't delay it I'm begging
I'll bloody my knees for a moment of doting
Tell me just please that I'm your darling plaything
and I'll keep on hoping but then you will leave
I'll sigh and move on to be somebody's new thing

Leave reality’s oppression,
A chance to escape depression,
Miss your comforting expression,
Dream’s obsession, Dream’s obsession.

Mind fabricating your embrace,
False-features of your warm kind face,
I say I love you just in case
You’re dreaming too… Are you dreaming too?

Another about her, MMM

It is getting hard for me to write any more, my thoughts wandering to your warmth, your intensity in that moment, your words whispered in the afterglow. I just want you to know, I love you

She's inspired a lot of my art, my missing muse, I hope you're well <3

-every twitch stutter or slip, you see them already.

I can only reiterate what I've already assured. How each sweet compliment for you is deserved. How I appreciate your feminine curves, and the masculine turn. Each little pump so cute, to physically see how much I impact you in kind, I swoon.