doom aside i'm excited but it's fucked how badly WSS has treated nyalra, that company isn't getting a single dime from me anymore

i wish i could have satisfaction of there being some innate reasoning behind it like an argument or falling out but nope. it's like a switch flipped in their brain one day and they just stopped caring. to say i'm a ghost would imply my presence is still felt at all to them. it's like i never existed

no more "what if", no more "maybe tomorrow", as long as i live and breathe i can carve my own path forward no matter how badly others have hurt me. roll with the punches and carry these scars with me. i can't move forward if i'm always looking back. i think i'll start making some overdue phonecalls

opened up my diary today for the first time in 2 years and just poured my heart out onto the pages. and i realized i need to stop waiting for a good day to come to me. i need to be the one to put my foot forward and make it happen