I'm still leftover drunk like 6+ hours later wtf I'm gonna have the worst hangover tomorrow
December 29, 2024 at 6:52 AM
I'm still leftover drunk like 6+ hours later wtf I'm gonna have the worst hangover tomorrow
self harm
what the fuck did I do.. I can't tell anyone irl this so here's a secret. I got crossfaded and starting cutting and could not stop it was insanely addictive. I have never in my life felt like that before. I can't do that again. it was fucking euphoric and I wanted to go so much further
what the fuck did I do.. I can't tell anyone irl this so here's a secret. I got crossfaded and starting cutting and could not stop it was insanely addictive. I have never in my life felt like that before. I can't do that again. it was fucking euphoric and I wanted to go so much further
December 29, 2024 at 5:44 AM
self harm
what the fuck did I do.. I can't tell anyone irl this so here's a secret. I got crossfaded and starting cutting and could not stop it was insanely addictive. I have never in my life felt like that before. I can't do that again. it was fucking euphoric and I wanted to go so much further
what the fuck did I do.. I can't tell anyone irl this so here's a secret. I got crossfaded and starting cutting and could not stop it was insanely addictive. I have never in my life felt like that before. I can't do that again. it was fucking euphoric and I wanted to go so much further
I'll always remember today. I'll make sure
December 28, 2024 at 9:24 PM
I'll always remember today. I'll make sure
I just wanna give up on restricting until I go back to work tbh. I'm just gonna try to maintain what I have rn. I keep having shit get in the way and it's exhausting feeling bad about it all the time like it even fucking matters.
December 28, 2024 at 1:58 PM
I just wanna give up on restricting until I go back to work tbh. I'm just gonna try to maintain what I have rn. I keep having shit get in the way and it's exhausting feeling bad about it all the time like it even fucking matters.
I'm not gonna hit 105 by New Year's but it's okay. still gonna be able to reach 99 by February, easy. I have lost over 10lbs in a month before and I can do it again
December 27, 2024 at 2:05 PM
I'm not gonna hit 105 by New Year's but it's okay. still gonna be able to reach 99 by February, easy. I have lost over 10lbs in a month before and I can do it again
OUTB&CK SUCKS my food is gonna be 890 cals and we're definitely getting drinks too (probably another 400-600). the worst part is. person I'm going with has had full-on ana before. I can't make dumb excuses with her cus she will know I relapsed
December 27, 2024 at 1:15 PM
OUTB&CK SUCKS my food is gonna be 890 cals and we're definitely getting drinks too (probably another 400-600). the worst part is. person I'm going with has had full-on ana before. I can't make dumb excuses with her cus she will know I relapsed
I wish I had died before I met you
December 27, 2024 at 3:56 AM
I wish I had died before I met you
I do everything I can for you and it's not even enough to make you happy. I know you fucking hate me but you have nobody else who will take care of you like I do so you say you love me and you won't let me leave either. fine. fucking fine. but I'm gonna have control of my pain and suffering, not you
December 27, 2024 at 3:30 AM
I do everything I can for you and it's not even enough to make you happy. I know you fucking hate me but you have nobody else who will take care of you like I do so you say you love me and you won't let me leave either. fine. fucking fine. but I'm gonna have control of my pain and suffering, not you
I'm surrounded by such innocent and kind people and then there's me... I feel like I'm always trying so hard to not be a piece of shit
December 27, 2024 at 2:38 AM
I'm surrounded by such innocent and kind people and then there's me... I feel like I'm always trying so hard to not be a piece of shit
I hate not knowing what I'm gonna eat tomorrow so fucking much. I don't wanna be weird but I just want to beg my roommates to make some sort of schedule
December 26, 2024 at 11:49 PM
I hate not knowing what I'm gonna eat tomorrow so fucking much. I don't wanna be weird but I just want to beg my roommates to make some sort of schedule
I miss doing long fasts. I swear I remember doing 80hrs one time but I don't have pics or anything to prove it so I'm not sure. my memory of that week is not great lol
December 26, 2024 at 8:40 PM
I miss doing long fasts. I swear I remember doing 80hrs one time but I don't have pics or anything to prove it so I'm not sure. my memory of that week is not great lol
already cried today but it's okay I'm still gonna do my exercises and stuff I think. just hate myself a lot
December 26, 2024 at 1:17 PM
already cried today but it's okay I'm still gonna do my exercises and stuff I think. just hate myself a lot
ate so much lately it's like I don't even have an ED... I was just faking it lmao I'm soooo mentally well
December 26, 2024 at 2:17 AM
ate so much lately it's like I don't even have an ED... I was just faking it lmao I'm soooo mentally well
someone at this party is being so weird about how I'm eating??? ughhh fml I hate these people
December 25, 2024 at 6:54 PM
someone at this party is being so weird about how I'm eating??? ughhh fml I hate these people
I got unreasonably crossfaded last night for no reason like what did I do??? I managed to chug some g zero so I don't have a hangover but still feel weird today
December 25, 2024 at 1:15 PM
I got unreasonably crossfaded last night for no reason like what did I do??? I managed to chug some g zero so I don't have a hangover but still feel weird today
fucked up again hahaha like really fucked wow
December 25, 2024 at 3:13 AM
fucked up again hahaha like really fucked wow
hell yeah 2 hour long flashback 😁
December 24, 2024 at 4:04 PM
hell yeah 2 hour long flashback 😁
wanted to exercise and stuff today but I'm getting more emotional flashbacks and I don't want to leave my bed now
December 24, 2024 at 2:10 PM
wanted to exercise and stuff today but I'm getting more emotional flashbacks and I don't want to leave my bed now
so tired of eating my TDEE every day fml. day 3 now
December 23, 2024 at 10:31 PM
so tired of eating my TDEE every day fml. day 3 now
new goal is to fit the diagnostic criteria for ana even tho I kinda hate the DSM lol
December 23, 2024 at 7:26 PM
new goal is to fit the diagnostic criteria for ana even tho I kinda hate the DSM lol
my partner has learned how to give me food in a way I can't refuse it's so joever
December 23, 2024 at 2:45 PM
my partner has learned how to give me food in a way I can't refuse it's so joever
I'm locking back in tomorrow I swear I love having this ED so much.. I am not well lol but I'm okay with that
December 23, 2024 at 12:54 AM
I'm locking back in tomorrow I swear I love having this ED so much.. I am not well lol but I'm okay with that
my cal limit vs mmm yummy peanut bar and I'm high
December 23, 2024 at 12:34 AM
my cal limit vs mmm yummy peanut bar and I'm high
if I don't follow you back, unfollowed you, or blocked you, I'm sorry but this account is not for me to get big numbers or interact with lots of people. I only follow people I actually want to read posts from. I block anyone who I don't like the vibe of on top of my other criteria. nothing personal
December 22, 2024 at 8:36 PM
if I don't follow you back, unfollowed you, or blocked you, I'm sorry but this account is not for me to get big numbers or interact with lots of people. I only follow people I actually want to read posts from. I block anyone who I don't like the vibe of on top of my other criteria. nothing personal
eating is getting harder the less I eat. before I used to binge and stuff and I loved and craved food so much when I was restricting. I feel like my body is just shutting down or something
December 21, 2024 at 3:53 AM
eating is getting harder the less I eat. before I used to binge and stuff and I loved and craved food so much when I was restricting. I feel like my body is just shutting down or something