As result of my PTSD & depression, I tried to commit suicide once. I immediately regretted taking the OD. And I feel guilty for putting people around me in such a hard situation. I still feel shame about it, but I wanted to share my story to break the taboo/silence. #ItGetsBetter

I've had my fair share of physical injuries as result of the abuse (bruises, bruised ribs, sprained limbs). I don't have a good self esteem or self confidence. I developed PTSD and depression (including automutilation and suicidality) as result of my trauma's.

I'm struggling with shame and blame about the abuse. The hardest part is that I regularly had genital responses during the sexual abuse. I often feel disgusted and betrayed by my own body.

One of my abusers made footage (videos and photos) of the abuse. He even distributed it on the internet. Today I still wonder how many sickly people have seen this footage. It's a nauseating idea that these images were made, that they exist and that they were distributed.

I was sexually abused by a relative for multiple years, which started when I was a toddler. When that abuser stopped, another relative started abusing me for multiple years. I was raped once by one of my mom's boyfriends. I was also raped by a group of strangers.

My story (thread):
I'm a no-contact survivor of childhood sexual, physical, emotional and psychological abuse, child neglect, which went on even in my early adulthood up until moved out and broke off all contact with my abusers. I'm also a multiple times sexual violence survivor.