Work six days a week so I can go home and get crossfaded listening to annoying people in bars and/or YT polisloppa. What a life baby. Fuckin love it.

Truth be told I'm scared that people won't like who I am when I'm sober, that sobriety will change me into a less interesting person, silly fears that keep me from interacting with others these days

Not really feeling it (or much) lately in all honesty

Things will get better

🫂

Best of luck

If I was a more presumptuous and less forgiving person I'd have a few accusations to lob at manipulative people, but those would be rather petty things to say and I'd be better off moving on with my life instead of developing grudges

Now if you'll excuse me I have to learn some curse magicks

Don't overreact to shocks

Ground yourself if you feel yourself in one

and finally

Cut everyone from your drinking relationships out of your life (very important)

Accept help but don't rely on others as part of your recovery
Find your own inner strength

Yeah same... I used to have to log out of everything and step away when I was in the thick of it. Otherwise I'd eventually get too deep in my own head and delete all socmed/channels/art I've made in a fit. Had to transfer a creative project server I controlled to a friend for that reason recently

I used to vent about these things behind locked priv accounts but idc anymore, wanting to get better and struggling with withdrawal isn't something to be ashamed of or get cancelled for. People who don't like it can unfollow and leave me be

It's hard to understate the paranoia especially when I'm naturally distrustful of others. Friends talking casually about weed secretly hate me and want to make me relapse, people on the street looking in my direction are cops/snitches, someone will snitch me out to loved ones, etc.

Alcohol is obviously more destructive but smoking or eating edibles every day can fuck with your thinking. Makes you dumber, more forgetful and way more paranoid. Compounds with other substances to make everything even more intense

fuck yes

It does suck that I'm more cognizant of when a chuuba is high on stream now tho :/