I need to make my QOL as good as possible so that I'm suddenly okay with my art flopping numbers-wise or okay with missing out on my oshi's new content release. life is too short to care. the chicken is bigger than the car.

and for added perspective, I've been using twitter for 16 YEARS

so what did I do to finally be okay with not being on twitter like I used to?
what I did is I make my real life fulfilling. I attempt to fix my work ethic during work hours. I draw way more. I replace Twitter scrolling times during my long commutes with Netflix or informative YouTube videos

(BTW to be transparent, this is specifically about the racists jumping on that influencer controversy to spread hate against Indonesians. 2nd instance is a user refusing to forgive a print vendor shop who fixed their work ethic for a whole year)

like I think the instant upset I felt from just scrolling there for 5 mins made me realize that none of this will matter to me or my job once I turn off my phone. I can be updated on news but I don't have to also absorb the negative emotions contained in the tweets like a sponge

Instagram is also kinda bad at this because my timeline starts recommending me a lot of "Japan is cooked" "Japanese society is not as pretty as you think" posts against my will like girl I know that I lived there for 8 years HAHAHAHAH

my ADHD brain is helped by journaling, I've been doing it for 2 weeks and it really helps putting my thoughts on a platform where I don't also see upsetting posts. so what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna quit doomscrolling on that website forever and be a healthier person. SNSやめたい

and I feel like Kote senses that Rika's reluctance to stand out is also from self deprecation. if Kote okays that, Rika will spiral. so he's trying to pull him out of his shell. it's like Rika gained an annoying older brother who ended up helping him be a better fighter anyway LMAO

it's even more interesting seeing their recollection and the two's sparring dialogues as one set. Rika doesn't want to do singing and dancing? okay, then Kote will slip in coordination lessons in their sparring sessions. and Rika can't say anything against it because it DOES benefit his fighting

I've been yapping analysis and theory about my oshis etc so much I should gradually repost them here