Just bought a shit ton of taffy

I’m so excited

Why are so many trees in cities the shitty pollen-vomiting ones??

My eyes are itchy as fuck.

Love how we just allow the government to assault our senses on a seasonal basis 😭

At least I proved myself that I could stop when I wanted to.

It wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it’d be, granted I was sick for the first few days.

I have to admit, I don’t think I want to smoke nearly as much as I used to, but I’m glad it’s no longer this ‘forbidden’ thing.

Soooo I had my interview yesterday!

Was told I’ll hear back in at least a week.

They’ve emailed today saying I’ve been unsuccessful.

I- Well.

Just over a week in and did a test at home

It’s positive!

Shit!

I’ve got the interview tomorrow which will hopefully take some days to decide

If successful then gotta hope they inform me about the test with like a week or two notice 😅

That works out to about a month, right? 🤞

The feeling of excitement before disappointment when I’ve come home thinking ‘yay it’s time to smoke’ only to realise I can’t, is reducing :)

Like the expectation is going away

I know it’s kinda the point but I hate having to just..sit with my thoughts & feelings instead of smoking them away

Whyyy am I here missing my ex? 😭

I think using the treadmill and belting out to songs that bring nostalgia is my new favourite hobby

Life sucks and I want to get high

I know it’s to be expected but my dreams are so wild and not in the good way 😭

Reoccurring nightmares and night sweats isn’t very chic

Gotta love the joy of applying to jobs like 3 months ago and only receiving responses today saying ‘Sorry, the job is no longer available.”

…NO SHIT. ITS BEEN 3 MONTHS. I’D HOPE YOU FILLED THE SPACE.

I started at 8AM on the 21st of April.

I’m also sick rn so it’s hard to tell what’s actually making me feel off. But hey, means I get to sleep the day away

HEY WASSUP

Made this cause I’ve been smoking the za since I was like 17 and haven’t really properly taken a tolerance break since.

I’m 23 now.

And at that time in my life where I should probably be doing more with it ya know?