I don’t exist

Can the world stop dragging me down?

Where there are ups, there are downs.

I honestly hate how I am always so tired. Unable to get myself to even really do anything meaningful.

Last night gave a revelation to me of sorts... All my friends are so talented and Im not... I only survive because my friends are so amazing. It feels like the only thing I provide is being a "Nice person" and Im not even that nice. Like, what do I even provide to my friends?

Do you ever get a feeling of something just being... Wrong? Though you cant tell exactly what it is?

Please be patient with streamers. Right now a lot of us are dealing with the harsh reality that has befallen us and being a "ray of sunshine" can be harder than you think. Some people feel the NEED to be happy at all times during stream. I am one such person. Thankfully I have only met cool people.

I will say, as an America (Which the following I have mentioned on my main before) I am absolutely terrified. Our future looks dark... What the fuck do we do?

Why does Citizen Soldier do so many songs that fucking hit so hard? When I need to cry I just listen to their songs and let it all come out. Fuck.

Hello everyone, its Natsuki. You may be wondering what this account is specifically for? This is my personal account where I will say things I wouldn't on my actual account as I do not want to make either either: Too full of things that generally arent brand friendly or some other shit.

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