I'm 95 fucking kilos and I know that's fine for a 22 y/o dude who'd 1.90m, and I know it's cause I have broad shoulders but I just wanna hhhhhhhhhhhhhjjjj

I dont wanna be fat anymore, I don't wanna hate my body anymore, I don't wanna look like a fucking blob anymore. I know restricting isn't the way and I know if I get back into it fully I won't be happy and I won't enjoy shit ever, but I just can't,,,,,,,, fuckinb,, , do this shit anymore

I wanted to keep it under 600 kcals today but I'm in such a horrible mood and my partner mentioned wanting to have sex so I thought about ordering something so I have a bit of energy, but the restaurant doesn't have kcals listed and I wanna KMSSSSSSSSSSS

resisting the urge to punish others by hurting myself, god's strongest clown

im a bit out of touch with the general common sense rules in the community, so ill go by what i know is acceptable based on what was going on on tumblr 2017,,, so if im a bit inappropriate im sorry,,,

i told my partner today that i got a bit triggy ed wise and they said they'll look up ways to help,,, thats really sweet of them tbh but i told them "haha dont worry its not that bad" and then went on to download myfitnesspal...

oh n i think imma get into proteine shakes to make up for lost proteine and dodge a meal in one go! so breakfast will be a proteine shake, then lunch is smth small and then no dinner

my plan is to restrict as much as possible until i get on t (@ the end of january) and start going to the gym properly. basically a "go to gym and eat healthy if you wanna eat" type of arrangement.

question, what does the caterpillar in #caterpillarsky mean? i was off the ed interent for a while and some things went past me,,,

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#edsky #caterpillarsky #edmemes

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♧ 22 y/o
♧ autism, adhd
♤ sw: 95kg
♤ gw: 80kg
♤ugw: 75kg

◇after 5 yrs, im back at it
◇would love to make friends on here even tho im kinda shit at replying

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ok, im turnjnf this into an ed acc

damn that was a wild 20 mins of scrolling... forgot what kids with internet access get up to but now i remembered and can go back to not being part of that shit

nobody knows me here and this shit is so comforting 😭😭😭 i love interacting with people on insta and getting to know local folk, but good lord do i have some thoughts that only strangers can know........

how many of yall come here from vent💀