There is a societal expectation to lie and to fake everything, and if you don't play this game you become a target.

Sober 1430 days today or 3y 11m. I try not to bother anyone about it, but im still proud of myself, and still embarrassed that im like this, and still fragile, and becoming more alone and isolated and jaded all the time. Good job, idiot.

Wonder if this place has any sober people. I would like to go like their posts. This shit is hard.

Im almost 4 years sober but barely hanging on to it by a thread. I need help. There's too much wrong. Everyone abandons me.

Feeling the sum pain of all my past rejections today.

Lonely.

Everyone is so fucking mean. I hate it here. Want to start drinking again.

I hope someone thinks about me when im gone.