nothing to live for anymore
nothing to see.. do..

i deserve every bit of pain im about to receive...

I love my friends to the point where i stopped trying..
Sorry for worrying y'all

literally the only reason i want to go to america is so that i can get a gun and end it.
people think of me as nothing more than a weird, ugly, obnoxious bitch and tbh i agree.
i doubt i will ever be successful in life and with how the world is going, to me it seems like a good alternative.

if it wasnt for my partner jose i probably wouldve killed myself by now

been roughly 5 days and none of my partners have even bothered to dm me just to simply say "hi".

i really want to just end it but i dont want to not see my friends again

None of my partners ever message me if i dont message first, it hurts to know honestly

Me and Jose for example, used to me lovely with one another, just cuddling n stuff playing mm2 on a call but now it's like.. what i said earlier