Screaming Into The Void
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Screaming Into The Void
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Sometimes you just need to scream into the void all the things that trouble you even if they are stupid no nonsense things.
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Don’t expect any interaction. Maybe I will, maybe I won’t. Depends on if you’re a dick in your comments. Sometimes you just need an outlet because you don’t have a real life one. So screaming into the void I go. Follow along or don’t. I’m going to scream regardless.
23. Will it never not hurt being on the periphery watching others play out what I wish for? What I strive and work for but can’t seem to get there? Cutting my heart out and putting it on a platter for you, only to be forgotten, holding it, waiting for you to see. Waiting to matter just a little.
December 2, 2025 at 6:20 AM
22. Feeling very lonely and isolated. I cut back on my engagement to those who can’t show up for me and it hurts. I miss them. I wish I had a me in my life. To show up and care and give as much as I do.
November 28, 2025 at 8:35 PM
21. How do you reconcile the part of you that fights against the stigma of being too much and allowing yourself to live fully out loud and the part where yes you do actually give too much for some people? How can you do both? Can you do both? Or is it a losing battle forever waged?
November 16, 2025 at 8:43 AM
20. I’m sad. I’m came here to vent as I do and I drew a blank as to what to say. All I’ve got is that today, I’m sad. I wish I had someone to share that with that understood.
November 15, 2025 at 8:57 PM
19. Todays a hard day. Today’s a really hard day but no one will care because I am the quiet strength that people don’t seem to check in on because I will always be okay eventually. My life doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of others and their own lives, I get that, but it would be nice to be seen.
October 31, 2025 at 3:15 PM
18. Well I think it’s finally starting to break. That piece that cares about you so much. That wants to be your friend. There is only so much being pushed aside that I can take before the care breaks. I’ll still be nice cause that’s what I do. It will hurt like hell, but so does this.
September 30, 2025 at 6:22 AM
17. I really wish that I would stop breaking my own heart. I wish I could get a handle on my expectations when it comes to friends like I have with my family. It makes me feel so pathetic that I just want a friend so bad that I will ignore what people show me with not caring as much as I do.
September 22, 2025 at 3:41 PM
16. Id like to be worth the effort at some point. Worth the effort of being called on my I’m fine bullshit. I always am after all. No need to worry about me because I will be fine eventually. It would be really nice though to have someone to not be fine with.
September 14, 2025 at 2:58 AM
15. The cracks are mending albeit slower than desired. Caught myself in a moment of joy yesterday unburdened from the anxiety, sadness, and depression that fills the rest of the moments of the day. I’ll take the win and hope to keep the momentum going.
August 22, 2025 at 2:32 PM
14. The whispers get stronger every day. Do it. Just hide it and no one will know. You’ll feel so much better.
Let some of the chaos bleed out.
You’re already seeing them, this will make them go away. Do it.
No.
I won’t let them win. Even when it’s hard. I’m better than that. I’m stronger than them.
August 18, 2025 at 10:21 PM
13. I feel like I should apologize for all the bah humbug recently but I don’t have anywhere else to vent. I will probably keep venting until I am strong enough to fix the cracks. Hopefully soon. Hopefully.
August 17, 2025 at 4:36 AM
12. Why do I always pick the people to connect with that have the inability to connect back? They get all they need from me but I am not able to get back what I need from them. Do I ask for too much? Am I too needy? Am I unrealistic? I just want a friend who sees all of me and I can be safe with.
August 16, 2025 at 6:53 PM
11. Well, this is not the year for people to remember my birthday. I had hopes for this one but alas it wasn’t meant to be. I’m trying to make it not hurt so bad, but I am failing miserably. Friends (I guess they’re not really) can break your heart too. Hurts different but man does it still hurt.
August 15, 2025 at 12:08 AM
10. It comes in waves, these posts. A couple back to back then silence for months. Pretty sure it reflects when I’ve held things in for to long without talking about them. Burying things and putting on the expected facade. Then a crack appears, the misery leaks out before I can patch it back up.
August 12, 2025 at 9:04 PM
9. It’s my birthday this week and I haven’t told or reminded anyone because it hurts more when I tell them and they still forget than just having them forget. It would be nice for someone to remember without me saying anything. We shall see if this year is the year.
August 11, 2025 at 10:04 AM
8. My heart hurts today. I did it again. Cared more than I should. Gave my care to another person who couldn’t give back like I was hoping. It’s okay. It’s my fault. Expectations are the thief of joy and all. I should really know better by now. I can’t help that my heart has so much to give though 💔
August 11, 2025 at 3:12 AM
7. How long does it take for someone to figure out how to go against who they are to protect their peace or when do you get to the point that the other people don’t matter and you just do you without anyone else’s validation?
June 9, 2025 at 7:42 AM
6. Talking all day to people but at the end of it never really feeling like you talked to anyone. Really wanting to talk and have conversations but don’t have the people who are trustworthy to do so. Feeling alone while being surrounded by many.
May 22, 2025 at 11:48 PM
5. Always doing, always having to be on, always being the caretaker, always having to make sure things happen and get done, it’s always you, always…it’s exhausting.
May 20, 2025 at 9:06 PM
4. Do you ever wish that you could just wipe clean the slate of expectations? That whatever thing you’ve been pigeonholed into gets erased and you can stop being whatever that thing is and step into you more fully without the repercussions?
May 14, 2025 at 7:30 PM
3. It’s embarrassing to me at my age how badly I’d like to have a friend friend. Not the run of the mill surface level friends that share pleasantries but someone who we just click. No judgement. No hiding. Just peace, acceptance, and understanding. A soul deep connection that is like coming home.
May 13, 2025 at 6:28 AM
2. I wish our society recognized different circadian rhythms. I am a night owl. Always have been. Every morning feels like a punishment for being me when I have to wake up at the time that someone else deemed to be the acceptable working time for the corporate world.
May 12, 2025 at 4:42 PM
1. My mother is still alive but I lost her years ago. She is just an acquaintance now. She always wanted to be our friend well now she thinks she is and I don’t have a mother anymore.
May 12, 2025 at 3:44 AM
Don’t expect any interaction. Maybe I will, maybe I won’t. Depends on if you’re a dick in your comments. Sometimes you just need an outlet because you don’t have a real life one. So screaming into the void I go. Follow along or don’t. I’m going to scream regardless.
May 12, 2025 at 3:22 AM