Ryan
@ryandavidsonwx.bsky.social
I realized today that somewhere along my path I had inadvertently convinced myself that I wasn't worthy of being loved. That I wasn't good enough to be in a relationship. Starting from middle school I forced myself into them searching for a future I invented for myself.
February 3, 2026 at 3:43 AM
I realized today that somewhere along my path I had inadvertently convinced myself that I wasn't worthy of being loved. That I wasn't good enough to be in a relationship. Starting from middle school I forced myself into them searching for a future I invented for myself.
I'm late, but I'm here right now
And I'm tryin' to find the magic
That we lost somehow
Maybe I was blind
But I see you now
As we're laying in the darkness
Did I wait too long
To turn the lights back on?
And I'm tryin' to find the magic
That we lost somehow
Maybe I was blind
But I see you now
As we're laying in the darkness
Did I wait too long
To turn the lights back on?
February 2, 2026 at 2:04 AM
I'm late, but I'm here right now
And I'm tryin' to find the magic
That we lost somehow
Maybe I was blind
But I see you now
As we're laying in the darkness
Did I wait too long
To turn the lights back on?
And I'm tryin' to find the magic
That we lost somehow
Maybe I was blind
But I see you now
As we're laying in the darkness
Did I wait too long
To turn the lights back on?
A few people have asked me recently about you and our relationship. 😞 They didn't know we ended, they just assumed we were still great.
January 27, 2026 at 2:27 AM
A few people have asked me recently about you and our relationship. 😞 They didn't know we ended, they just assumed we were still great.
I'm glad i decided to use this to get this stuff out. Otherwise I'd be even more of a mess and probably be staring at my phone a lot with my finger over your number. Ready to send you a message. We miss you, and selfishly I wish you were here, but you're not and I hope you're happy and healthy. 🦋
January 23, 2026 at 4:46 AM
I'm glad i decided to use this to get this stuff out. Otherwise I'd be even more of a mess and probably be staring at my phone a lot with my finger over your number. Ready to send you a message. We miss you, and selfishly I wish you were here, but you're not and I hope you're happy and healthy. 🦋
Someone just asked me what happened to you in my life. I sent them this gif.
a woman is crying and leaning against a wall .
ALT: a woman is crying and leaning against a wall .
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January 23, 2026 at 12:34 AM
Someone just asked me what happened to you in my life. I sent them this gif.
I had a dream about you the other night. In the dream I'm scrolling through insta and somehow your account was there. I've been cleaning up the office and I found papers of yours too. It's been a tough time.
January 19, 2026 at 9:55 PM
I had a dream about you the other night. In the dream I'm scrolling through insta and somehow your account was there. I've been cleaning up the office and I found papers of yours too. It's been a tough time.
I was filling out school paperwork today. You weren't in it anymore but everyone had a priority number. 3 wasn't there. 😞
January 12, 2026 at 3:02 PM
I was filling out school paperwork today. You weren't in it anymore but everyone had a priority number. 3 wasn't there. 😞
I had to get a replacement phone before Christmas because the back screen cracked on mine when it fell out of my pocket. Whatever happened with the sync of the new one has adjusted my pictures and suddenly all pictures of you and the three of us together are at the top of the gallery. 😞💔🦋
January 11, 2026 at 2:03 AM
I had to get a replacement phone before Christmas because the back screen cracked on mine when it fell out of my pocket. Whatever happened with the sync of the new one has adjusted my pictures and suddenly all pictures of you and the three of us together are at the top of the gallery. 😞💔🦋
There's just this lingering hope that I'll see you again in the way we once saw each other. That I'll get to hold you, kiss you, and be with you again and everything will be ok and right in the world. The days pass and the light dims a little more. 😞
January 9, 2026 at 3:54 AM
There's just this lingering hope that I'll see you again in the way we once saw each other. That I'll get to hold you, kiss you, and be with you again and everything will be ok and right in the world. The days pass and the light dims a little more. 😞
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out.
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out.
January 6, 2026 at 3:38 AM
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out.
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out.
Where were you? Please don't go. Stay right here, it's you.
January 5, 2026 at 8:40 PM
Where were you? Please don't go. Stay right here, it's you.
Was just watching that popular show with hot athletes. How I wished you and I were either one of those couples. 🥺
January 3, 2026 at 5:48 AM
Was just watching that popular show with hot athletes. How I wished you and I were either one of those couples. 🥺
We were talking about my cousin's husband. And J asked which Mike we were talking about. So I'm thinking about you as a complete year has passed without you. And I'm still missing you and so is he.
January 1, 2026 at 1:55 AM
We were talking about my cousin's husband. And J asked which Mike we were talking about. So I'm thinking about you as a complete year has passed without you. And I'm still missing you and so is he.
A quote from an article I just read, "Not one crush of mine worked out. It hurts you, though, right? If you feel feelings and it’s unrequited, it feels like an attack on you or makes you feel unwanted."
December 29, 2025 at 8:06 PM
A quote from an article I just read, "Not one crush of mine worked out. It hurts you, though, right? If you feel feelings and it’s unrequited, it feels like an attack on you or makes you feel unwanted."
Watching Spider-man 2 last night. One of my favorite lines, "isn't it about time someone saved your life?" 😭💔
December 29, 2025 at 4:19 PM
Watching Spider-man 2 last night. One of my favorite lines, "isn't it about time someone saved your life?" 😭💔
Sometimes I get a big whack of that pain of what could have been. And then I think maybe one day we'll have it again. Then I think about here and if you ever saw it. Then I feel ridiculous, but I know you won't see it. Which is why I can tell you I love you to SgrA*
December 26, 2025 at 7:05 AM
Sometimes I get a big whack of that pain of what could have been. And then I think maybe one day we'll have it again. Then I think about here and if you ever saw it. Then I feel ridiculous, but I know you won't see it. Which is why I can tell you I love you to SgrA*
It was a Jaws Christmas. I wish you could have been here for it. 🦋 He's so into it.
December 25, 2025 at 6:46 PM
It was a Jaws Christmas. I wish you could have been here for it. 🦋 He's so into it.
Merry Christmas ♥️🦋
Wish I was sharing it with you. I hope Santa brings you everything you wanted. You absolutely deserve it.
Wish I was sharing it with you. I hope Santa brings you everything you wanted. You absolutely deserve it.
December 25, 2025 at 5:00 AM
Merry Christmas ♥️🦋
Wish I was sharing it with you. I hope Santa brings you everything you wanted. You absolutely deserve it.
Wish I was sharing it with you. I hope Santa brings you everything you wanted. You absolutely deserve it.
He still asks about you. My heart breaks every time I tell him we aren't "friends" I have to tell him it's because my heart can't handle it and that even though we don't talk and I don't know how you are, I still love you.
December 24, 2025 at 12:01 AM
He still asks about you. My heart breaks every time I tell him we aren't "friends" I have to tell him it's because my heart can't handle it and that even though we don't talk and I don't know how you are, I still love you.
I hope you run across this. I want you to know that I struggle not having you in my life, but I — we — didn't forget you. I want to text you daily, to see you, hug you and hold you. But for your happiness and the healing I have to do without you, I couldn't. So these are the texts I can't send you.
December 19, 2025 at 3:18 PM
I hope you run across this. I want you to know that I struggle not having you in my life, but I — we — didn't forget you. I want to text you daily, to see you, hug you and hold you. But for your happiness and the healing I have to do without you, I couldn't. So these are the texts I can't send you.
I hope you made it over to the hibachi. For birthday dinner. Sweet dreams, you handsome man.
December 19, 2025 at 4:16 AM
I hope you made it over to the hibachi. For birthday dinner. Sweet dreams, you handsome man.
Your birth time is coming up. I think it's 938 or 948, I have it saved. But I remember it. Happy Birthday ❤️🛥️🦈🛢️🦋❤️
December 19, 2025 at 2:16 AM
Your birth time is coming up. I think it's 938 or 948, I have it saved. But I remember it. Happy Birthday ❤️🛥️🦈🛢️🦋❤️
Happy birthday. I wish I could actually tell you. ♥️ I hope you have a magical day.
December 18, 2025 at 12:00 PM
Happy birthday. I wish I could actually tell you. ♥️ I hope you have a magical day.
I hope you're having an amazing week. I still think about the cake I made for your birthday from scratch. You're the only man I've done that for and you appreciated it which made it even better.
December 17, 2025 at 4:43 AM
I hope you're having an amazing week. I still think about the cake I made for your birthday from scratch. You're the only man I've done that for and you appreciated it which made it even better.