Rubberraven
@rubberraven.bsky.social
Autistic bisexual rubberist with BPD and bipolar type 1.
Trying to lead my authentic life while navigating my mental health challenges.
This is my space to vent and be genuine about my feelings and experiences.
Trying to lead my authentic life while navigating my mental health challenges.
This is my space to vent and be genuine about my feelings and experiences.
It's time to do the xmas tree with the kids!
I'm knackered, but it's got to be done.
Maybe I can get them to do most of it.
I'm knackered, but it's got to be done.
Maybe I can get them to do most of it.
December 1, 2025 at 8:30 AM
It's time to do the xmas tree with the kids!
I'm knackered, but it's got to be done.
Maybe I can get them to do most of it.
I'm knackered, but it's got to be done.
Maybe I can get them to do most of it.
It's interesting, when I get home I feel more "silly". Still tired, but more playful.
Guess it shows that I mask quite a bit at work.
Guess it shows that I mask quite a bit at work.
December 1, 2025 at 8:27 AM
It's interesting, when I get home I feel more "silly". Still tired, but more playful.
Guess it shows that I mask quite a bit at work.
Guess it shows that I mask quite a bit at work.
So tired today. Feeling very unproductive.
Having my lunch and coffee before I head in to battle my big task for the day.
Having my lunch and coffee before I head in to battle my big task for the day.
December 1, 2025 at 1:07 AM
So tired today. Feeling very unproductive.
Having my lunch and coffee before I head in to battle my big task for the day.
Having my lunch and coffee before I head in to battle my big task for the day.
Had some interesting perceptual experiences this morning.
I made myself a coffee as usual for my drive to work. I do a nespresso capsule, add milk, then nuke it in the microwave for 1min 10sec.
I went to the fridge and there was NO milk! I'm positive there was enough last night.
I made myself a coffee as usual for my drive to work. I do a nespresso capsule, add milk, then nuke it in the microwave for 1min 10sec.
I went to the fridge and there was NO milk! I'm positive there was enough last night.
November 30, 2025 at 10:54 PM
Had some interesting perceptual experiences this morning.
I made myself a coffee as usual for my drive to work. I do a nespresso capsule, add milk, then nuke it in the microwave for 1min 10sec.
I went to the fridge and there was NO milk! I'm positive there was enough last night.
I made myself a coffee as usual for my drive to work. I do a nespresso capsule, add milk, then nuke it in the microwave for 1min 10sec.
I went to the fridge and there was NO milk! I'm positive there was enough last night.
Today is brought to you by "annoyed" and "flat"
November 30, 2025 at 7:30 AM
Today is brought to you by "annoyed" and "flat"
Whelp. We decided to take a family trip into the city to have a look at the Myer window and browse the toys.
Myer window was too long of a wait so we just went up to the toys.
Unexpectedly, we went to see Santa!
And both boys had photos with him!!
Astonished.
Myer window was too long of a wait so we just went up to the toys.
Unexpectedly, we went to see Santa!
And both boys had photos with him!!
Astonished.
November 29, 2025 at 7:41 AM
Whelp. We decided to take a family trip into the city to have a look at the Myer window and browse the toys.
Myer window was too long of a wait so we just went up to the toys.
Unexpectedly, we went to see Santa!
And both boys had photos with him!!
Astonished.
Myer window was too long of a wait so we just went up to the toys.
Unexpectedly, we went to see Santa!
And both boys had photos with him!!
Astonished.
All week, I've taken my Seroquel and 30mins later I can barely stand.
Tonight I took it and am wide awake in bed an hour later.
WTF?
Bipolar meds are weird man.
Tonight I took it and am wide awake in bed an hour later.
WTF?
Bipolar meds are weird man.
November 28, 2025 at 1:06 PM
All week, I've taken my Seroquel and 30mins later I can barely stand.
Tonight I took it and am wide awake in bed an hour later.
WTF?
Bipolar meds are weird man.
Tonight I took it and am wide awake in bed an hour later.
WTF?
Bipolar meds are weird man.
Friday night date night.
A quick stop at Werribee Plaza (I refuse to call it Pacific Werribee, I will die on this hill) to battle the black friday masses before Mexican at Villiage Cantina.
Now I have become a balloon. Soooooo full!
A quick stop at Werribee Plaza (I refuse to call it Pacific Werribee, I will die on this hill) to battle the black friday masses before Mexican at Villiage Cantina.
Now I have become a balloon. Soooooo full!
November 28, 2025 at 9:30 AM
Friday night date night.
A quick stop at Werribee Plaza (I refuse to call it Pacific Werribee, I will die on this hill) to battle the black friday masses before Mexican at Villiage Cantina.
Now I have become a balloon. Soooooo full!
A quick stop at Werribee Plaza (I refuse to call it Pacific Werribee, I will die on this hill) to battle the black friday masses before Mexican at Villiage Cantina.
Now I have become a balloon. Soooooo full!
It's lunchtime.
I'm feeling excitable.
I'm going to draw a line under the first half of the work day.
I have 1 big task that I need to focus on today and I'm going to ignore everything else until I'm finished it.
But first lunch and a walk to calm down.
I'm feeling excitable.
I'm going to draw a line under the first half of the work day.
I have 1 big task that I need to focus on today and I'm going to ignore everything else until I'm finished it.
But first lunch and a walk to calm down.
November 28, 2025 at 1:34 AM
It's lunchtime.
I'm feeling excitable.
I'm going to draw a line under the first half of the work day.
I have 1 big task that I need to focus on today and I'm going to ignore everything else until I'm finished it.
But first lunch and a walk to calm down.
I'm feeling excitable.
I'm going to draw a line under the first half of the work day.
I have 1 big task that I need to focus on today and I'm going to ignore everything else until I'm finished it.
But first lunch and a walk to calm down.
This has me worried.
Arrotex, Cipla, GM Pharma, Alphapharm. All having shortages or predicted shortages of Lamotragine.
#bipolar
apps.tga.gov.au/shortages/Se...
Arrotex, Cipla, GM Pharma, Alphapharm. All having shortages or predicted shortages of Lamotragine.
#bipolar
apps.tga.gov.au/shortages/Se...
Medicine Shortages Information Initiative
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apps.tga.gov.au
November 27, 2025 at 8:52 PM
This has me worried.
Arrotex, Cipla, GM Pharma, Alphapharm. All having shortages or predicted shortages of Lamotragine.
#bipolar
apps.tga.gov.au/shortages/Se...
Arrotex, Cipla, GM Pharma, Alphapharm. All having shortages or predicted shortages of Lamotragine.
#bipolar
apps.tga.gov.au/shortages/Se...
Still noticing that I'm getting more excitable in the afternoon/evening.
I think I'll try and measure my mood in the afternoon as well as just in the morning.
I think I'll try and measure my mood in the afternoon as well as just in the morning.
November 27, 2025 at 7:38 AM
Still noticing that I'm getting more excitable in the afternoon/evening.
I think I'll try and measure my mood in the afternoon as well as just in the morning.
I think I'll try and measure my mood in the afternoon as well as just in the morning.
Glad work is over today. Much braining was done today and it needs a rest.
November 27, 2025 at 7:36 AM
Glad work is over today. Much braining was done today and it needs a rest.
Today I'm feeling flat.
Woke up about 5am, snoozed until about 5:45 as my body wasn't ready to get up yet.
I'm noticing I'm thinking about hypothetical scenarios, and getting upset about them.
I'm catching myself though, stopping, and calming myself down.
Progress.
Woke up about 5am, snoozed until about 5:45 as my body wasn't ready to get up yet.
I'm noticing I'm thinking about hypothetical scenarios, and getting upset about them.
I'm catching myself though, stopping, and calming myself down.
Progress.
November 27, 2025 at 12:56 AM
Today I'm feeling flat.
Woke up about 5am, snoozed until about 5:45 as my body wasn't ready to get up yet.
I'm noticing I'm thinking about hypothetical scenarios, and getting upset about them.
I'm catching myself though, stopping, and calming myself down.
Progress.
Woke up about 5am, snoozed until about 5:45 as my body wasn't ready to get up yet.
I'm noticing I'm thinking about hypothetical scenarios, and getting upset about them.
I'm catching myself though, stopping, and calming myself down.
Progress.
Resisted the urge to get schnitz for dinner.
Oh I still got it for the family, but "I" didn't get any. I'm sticking with my shake tonight.
Oh I still got it for the family, but "I" didn't get any. I'm sticking with my shake tonight.
November 26, 2025 at 7:14 AM
Resisted the urge to get schnitz for dinner.
Oh I still got it for the family, but "I" didn't get any. I'm sticking with my shake tonight.
Oh I still got it for the family, but "I" didn't get any. I'm sticking with my shake tonight.
Tired this morning. Slight headache. A bit slow.
Still staying in the safe sleep zone of 6hrs/night so thats ok.
Got a few meetings today but I'm trying to stay focused.
Still staying in the safe sleep zone of 6hrs/night so thats ok.
Got a few meetings today but I'm trying to stay focused.
November 26, 2025 at 1:29 AM
Tired this morning. Slight headache. A bit slow.
Still staying in the safe sleep zone of 6hrs/night so thats ok.
Got a few meetings today but I'm trying to stay focused.
Still staying in the safe sleep zone of 6hrs/night so thats ok.
Got a few meetings today but I'm trying to stay focused.
I'm going to ask my psychiatrist about medicine shortages.
I'm on lamotragine (300mg a day) and I've been checking the TGA website and it's been coming up as there are current and predicted shortages. Alternative genetics available, but I think I should ask about it as it's like, REALLY important.
I'm on lamotragine (300mg a day) and I've been checking the TGA website and it's been coming up as there are current and predicted shortages. Alternative genetics available, but I think I should ask about it as it's like, REALLY important.
November 25, 2025 at 1:56 AM
I'm going to ask my psychiatrist about medicine shortages.
I'm on lamotragine (300mg a day) and I've been checking the TGA website and it's been coming up as there are current and predicted shortages. Alternative genetics available, but I think I should ask about it as it's like, REALLY important.
I'm on lamotragine (300mg a day) and I've been checking the TGA website and it's been coming up as there are current and predicted shortages. Alternative genetics available, but I think I should ask about it as it's like, REALLY important.
6hrs sleep last night. Felt pretty awake like an hr earlier though and had snoozed for a bit.
Sleep is still resetting me ok. I can feel myself getting more energetic throughout the day.
Not too much, it's nice to have motivation and feel good.
Is this what "normal" people feel like? #bipolar
Sleep is still resetting me ok. I can feel myself getting more energetic throughout the day.
Not too much, it's nice to have motivation and feel good.
Is this what "normal" people feel like? #bipolar
November 25, 2025 at 1:54 AM
6hrs sleep last night. Felt pretty awake like an hr earlier though and had snoozed for a bit.
Sleep is still resetting me ok. I can feel myself getting more energetic throughout the day.
Not too much, it's nice to have motivation and feel good.
Is this what "normal" people feel like? #bipolar
Sleep is still resetting me ok. I can feel myself getting more energetic throughout the day.
Not too much, it's nice to have motivation and feel good.
Is this what "normal" people feel like? #bipolar
They want the office staff to start clocking in at work.
Like, I'm a salary employee. I don't get paid by the hour.
Why do I need to clock in and out?
They are spouting some bullshit about safety and making sure people aren't doing excessive OT, like get fucked.
Like, I'm a salary employee. I don't get paid by the hour.
Why do I need to clock in and out?
They are spouting some bullshit about safety and making sure people aren't doing excessive OT, like get fucked.
November 24, 2025 at 1:35 AM
They want the office staff to start clocking in at work.
Like, I'm a salary employee. I don't get paid by the hour.
Why do I need to clock in and out?
They are spouting some bullshit about safety and making sure people aren't doing excessive OT, like get fucked.
Like, I'm a salary employee. I don't get paid by the hour.
Why do I need to clock in and out?
They are spouting some bullshit about safety and making sure people aren't doing excessive OT, like get fucked.
Enjoying the sun today on my lunchtime walk.
I've been working hard at my work routine recently and it's definitely helping.
I've been working hard at my work routine recently and it's definitely helping.
November 24, 2025 at 1:32 AM
Enjoying the sun today on my lunchtime walk.
I've been working hard at my work routine recently and it's definitely helping.
I've been working hard at my work routine recently and it's definitely helping.
Seroquel kicked my arse last night (asleep within 30mins), yet I woke up feeling awake (with the usual grogginess) after only 4.5hrs sleep.
Watching carefully today for symptoms.
Everything seems ok so far.
Probably just a 1 off.
Watching carefully today for symptoms.
Everything seems ok so far.
Probably just a 1 off.
November 24, 2025 at 1:21 AM
Seroquel kicked my arse last night (asleep within 30mins), yet I woke up feeling awake (with the usual grogginess) after only 4.5hrs sleep.
Watching carefully today for symptoms.
Everything seems ok so far.
Probably just a 1 off.
Watching carefully today for symptoms.
Everything seems ok so far.
Probably just a 1 off.
Had a shave tonight for work in the morning.
I did a really good job, it's so nice and smooth, I keep touching it.
Every time I touch my neck I feel like I want to wear my collar, to feel owned again.
It makes me sad wishing to feel that way again.
I did a really good job, it's so nice and smooth, I keep touching it.
Every time I touch my neck I feel like I want to wear my collar, to feel owned again.
It makes me sad wishing to feel that way again.
November 23, 2025 at 11:45 AM
Had a shave tonight for work in the morning.
I did a really good job, it's so nice and smooth, I keep touching it.
Every time I touch my neck I feel like I want to wear my collar, to feel owned again.
It makes me sad wishing to feel that way again.
I did a really good job, it's so nice and smooth, I keep touching it.
Every time I touch my neck I feel like I want to wear my collar, to feel owned again.
It makes me sad wishing to feel that way again.
Had to go rescue my wife from replacement buses on our train line due to works.
I'm a big strong manly man.
Yeah nah I couldn't do it with a straight face 🤣🤣🤣🤣
I'm a big strong manly man.
Yeah nah I couldn't do it with a straight face 🤣🤣🤣🤣
November 23, 2025 at 11:05 AM
Had to go rescue my wife from replacement buses on our train line due to works.
I'm a big strong manly man.
Yeah nah I couldn't do it with a straight face 🤣🤣🤣🤣
I'm a big strong manly man.
Yeah nah I couldn't do it with a straight face 🤣🤣🤣🤣
Slept in. Kitchen cleaned. Washing washed.
Time to get lunch and then tackle bigger cleaning tasks.
Time to get lunch and then tackle bigger cleaning tasks.
November 23, 2025 at 2:30 AM
Slept in. Kitchen cleaned. Washing washed.
Time to get lunch and then tackle bigger cleaning tasks.
Time to get lunch and then tackle bigger cleaning tasks.
I've been thinking about how guys particularly ones in monogamous relationships (myself included) feel like they don't get enough sex.
I thought, how often WOULD I have sex if I could have it whenever I want and came up with the following:
I thought, how often WOULD I have sex if I could have it whenever I want and came up with the following:
November 22, 2025 at 4:57 AM
I've been thinking about how guys particularly ones in monogamous relationships (myself included) feel like they don't get enough sex.
I thought, how often WOULD I have sex if I could have it whenever I want and came up with the following:
I thought, how often WOULD I have sex if I could have it whenever I want and came up with the following:
Omg that Dan guy is such an arsehole
November 21, 2025 at 12:18 PM
Omg that Dan guy is such an arsehole