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Eepy Squib
@punksquid.bsky.social
· Sep 3
About me:
29F
Bpd, Bulimia nervosa, Ptsd, SAD, agoraphobia
My ED relapse rules my life atm
Ugw 0lbs 0 ounces.
Don't enjoy life.
I post here to vent. I am unhealthy and probably dying. Do not do what I do.
Planning a huge fast for fall of this year. So, a week from now.
I'm a tortured soul #edsky
29F
Bpd, Bulimia nervosa, Ptsd, SAD, agoraphobia
My ED relapse rules my life atm
Ugw 0lbs 0 ounces.
Don't enjoy life.
I post here to vent. I am unhealthy and probably dying. Do not do what I do.
Planning a huge fast for fall of this year. So, a week from now.
I'm a tortured soul #edsky
It was gradual (over months) but... really? The final blow has to happen rn? Welp anyway we did it folks. I am now on the other side, where food isn't enjoyable anymore 😔
#edbsky
#edbsky
November 26, 2025 at 5:53 PM
It was gradual (over months) but... really? The final blow has to happen rn? Welp anyway we did it folks. I am now on the other side, where food isn't enjoyable anymore 😔
#edbsky
#edbsky
I had binge eating tendencies most of my life. How ironic that food doesn't make me feel any reward anymore right before Thanksgiving. Now I must search for a new copium. 🤷🏻♀️
#edbsky
#edbsky
November 26, 2025 at 5:28 PM
I had binge eating tendencies most of my life. How ironic that food doesn't make me feel any reward anymore right before Thanksgiving. Now I must search for a new copium. 🤷🏻♀️
#edbsky
#edbsky
me to my mother: please dont mention my grandparents. i shove their memory in my head away bc their loss was too painful.
mother: ok
5 seconds later: mentions them
a week later: sends a pic of me with them
gee why do i have bulimia again?
#edbsky
mother: ok
5 seconds later: mentions them
a week later: sends a pic of me with them
gee why do i have bulimia again?
#edbsky
November 24, 2025 at 5:54 PM
me to my mother: please dont mention my grandparents. i shove their memory in my head away bc their loss was too painful.
mother: ok
5 seconds later: mentions them
a week later: sends a pic of me with them
gee why do i have bulimia again?
#edbsky
mother: ok
5 seconds later: mentions them
a week later: sends a pic of me with them
gee why do i have bulimia again?
#edbsky
November 24, 2025 at 3:01 PM
I'm too anxious and upset at my past mistakes.
The adderall doesn't help.
Skipping the eating part of today. Where's the Adam Sandler's click remote when I need it.
🍔 ⏩
#caterpillarsky
The adderall doesn't help.
Skipping the eating part of today. Where's the Adam Sandler's click remote when I need it.
🍔 ⏩
#caterpillarsky
November 24, 2025 at 2:00 PM
I'm too anxious and upset at my past mistakes.
The adderall doesn't help.
Skipping the eating part of today. Where's the Adam Sandler's click remote when I need it.
🍔 ⏩
#caterpillarsky
The adderall doesn't help.
Skipping the eating part of today. Where's the Adam Sandler's click remote when I need it.
🍔 ⏩
#caterpillarsky
I don't want to be a woman, I don't want to be a man, I guess I'm a nothing.
November 24, 2025 at 12:53 AM
I don't want to be a woman, I don't want to be a man, I guess I'm a nothing.
November 23, 2025 at 9:21 PM
someone is sick in the house and i will NOT be sick thanksgiving day (aka bulimia paradise) so unfortunately I have to put the ED on hold and eat...v...v...vegetables and fruits. 😭 #edbsky
November 21, 2025 at 8:29 PM
someone is sick in the house and i will NOT be sick thanksgiving day (aka bulimia paradise) so unfortunately I have to put the ED on hold and eat...v...v...vegetables and fruits. 😭 #edbsky
Ed took all my energy. Coma-like state. I'm a zombie
November 21, 2025 at 10:43 AM
Ed took all my energy. Coma-like state. I'm a zombie
The eating disorder is never, ever fucking leaving me.
November 16, 2025 at 2:39 PM
The eating disorder is never, ever fucking leaving me.
500cals for 1 slice of pecan pie lol pecan bye
November 16, 2025 at 8:37 AM
500cals for 1 slice of pecan pie lol pecan bye
While starving: heavy eyebags, looked older, flat af hair
While eating: complexion revives, eyes light up, cortisol lowers, hair looks less dead
I'm still in denial of my ed, btw. 💜 🍜
While eating: complexion revives, eyes light up, cortisol lowers, hair looks less dead
I'm still in denial of my ed, btw. 💜 🍜
November 15, 2025 at 4:30 PM
While starving: heavy eyebags, looked older, flat af hair
While eating: complexion revives, eyes light up, cortisol lowers, hair looks less dead
I'm still in denial of my ed, btw. 💜 🍜
While eating: complexion revives, eyes light up, cortisol lowers, hair looks less dead
I'm still in denial of my ed, btw. 💜 🍜
After a week of bingeing it's time to fast not because I care about my weight but because mom's doing that thing again where she ignores me for no reason and only responds with what she cares about and I'm sad because of it. #caterpillarsky #edbsky
November 14, 2025 at 6:07 PM
After a week of bingeing it's time to fast not because I care about my weight but because mom's doing that thing again where she ignores me for no reason and only responds with what she cares about and I'm sad because of it. #caterpillarsky #edbsky
If this fucking ed makes me puke one more fucking time. I am so SICK of this
November 10, 2025 at 7:38 AM
If this fucking ed makes me puke one more fucking time. I am so SICK of this
Why did you buy me a meal you idiot.
What, did you think I'd keep that down? All that fat? How about you DON'T buy food for me unless I ask.
#mia
What, did you think I'd keep that down? All that fat? How about you DON'T buy food for me unless I ask.
#mia
November 6, 2025 at 9:13 PM
Why did you buy me a meal you idiot.
What, did you think I'd keep that down? All that fat? How about you DON'T buy food for me unless I ask.
#mia
What, did you think I'd keep that down? All that fat? How about you DON'T buy food for me unless I ask.
#mia
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locking the fuck in for the 24601 th time of the year 🥖
November 4, 2025 at 9:02 PM
locking the fuck in for the 24601 th time of the year 🥖
November 4, 2025 at 3:18 PM
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does anyone else just fill up half their calories with soda? I know most are afraid of sugar and stuff but I live off this shit and log it into my daily calories lmao #edbsky #hungrycaterpillar
November 2, 2025 at 12:25 AM
does anyone else just fill up half their calories with soda? I know most are afraid of sugar and stuff but I live off this shit and log it into my daily calories lmao #edbsky #hungrycaterpillar
I find it weird that I and others seem to think weight, a person's size is permanent. Fat can be gained or lost relatively quickly multiple times over someone's life. So why do we treat ourselves as failures for a reversible thing?
#edbsky
#edbsky
November 4, 2025 at 1:40 PM
I find it weird that I and others seem to think weight, a person's size is permanent. Fat can be gained or lost relatively quickly multiple times over someone's life. So why do we treat ourselves as failures for a reversible thing?
#edbsky
#edbsky
I am actually too scared of food to eat it I think I fucked up to the point of no return. I always thought I was making the decisions here.
#edbsky
#edbsky
November 3, 2025 at 7:51 PM
I am actually too scared of food to eat it I think I fucked up to the point of no return. I always thought I was making the decisions here.
#edbsky
#edbsky