Nothing hurts more than when you are passionate about something. Talk about it all the time to a certain person because you want to share that passion..they never showed any interest until someone else brings it up..then suddenly they are all in..starting to feel like a clown for even opening up..

I just want to feel wanted...I'm tired of constantly initiating things between people I have relationships with...it's always me reaching out..it's always me asking if someone wants to spend time..I just want to be wanted..

Constantly asking myself what I did to be the one outcast from every friend group I've ever been apart of..

due to recent events