PolterDF ⚙️
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I just wanna come clear about this, because I don't think I'll be feeling better if I don't talk about it
I groomed someone 3 years younger than me.
I want to explain how this happened and what this did to me mentally recently. If you're uncomfortable with this topic, please skip and unfollow asap
I groomed someone 3 years younger than me.
I want to explain how this happened and what this did to me mentally recently. If you're uncomfortable with this topic, please skip and unfollow asap
Anyways, stay safe. And don't be like me. Look after one another.
If I don't respond here or on discord the next days, I might be unreachable for good.
If I don't respond here or on discord the next days, I might be unreachable for good.
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
Anyways, stay safe. And don't be like me. Look after one another.
If I don't respond here or on discord the next days, I might be unreachable for good.
If I don't respond here or on discord the next days, I might be unreachable for good.
I turned interactions off cuz ik most comments will mostly be "This is disgusting" or "This doesn't excuse this". Which is stuff I am very aware of and agree with.
Which i can't really see rn cuz I'm in an incredibly critical headspace and trying to not do something stupid.
Which i can't really see rn cuz I'm in an incredibly critical headspace and trying to not do something stupid.
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
I turned interactions off cuz ik most comments will mostly be "This is disgusting" or "This doesn't excuse this". Which is stuff I am very aware of and agree with.
Which i can't really see rn cuz I'm in an incredibly critical headspace and trying to not do something stupid.
Which i can't really see rn cuz I'm in an incredibly critical headspace and trying to not do something stupid.
can't really be proven. I have promised to not contact M anymore in any way possible. I take full responsibility for all my actions
I understand if you don't want to interact with me anymore in the slightest because of me being a past groomer. So feel free to unfollow.
I understand if you don't want to interact with me anymore in the slightest because of me being a past groomer. So feel free to unfollow.
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
can't really be proven. I have promised to not contact M anymore in any way possible. I take full responsibility for all my actions
I understand if you don't want to interact with me anymore in the slightest because of me being a past groomer. So feel free to unfollow.
I understand if you don't want to interact with me anymore in the slightest because of me being a past groomer. So feel free to unfollow.
I'm just terrified of going into a relationship atm. I don't trust myself with one.
I just want to make it clear that I'm incredibly ashamed and disgusted with my past behavior. I'm deeply sorry for what I've done. I can assure that this is no longer me, but I know it's something that
I just want to make it clear that I'm incredibly ashamed and disgusted with my past behavior. I'm deeply sorry for what I've done. I can assure that this is no longer me, but I know it's something that
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
I'm just terrified of going into a relationship atm. I don't trust myself with one.
I just want to make it clear that I'm incredibly ashamed and disgusted with my past behavior. I'm deeply sorry for what I've done. I can assure that this is no longer me, but I know it's something that
I just want to make it clear that I'm incredibly ashamed and disgusted with my past behavior. I'm deeply sorry for what I've done. I can assure that this is no longer me, but I know it's something that
1. Cuz I still care about M a lot and feel like I'd betray us both if I started something with another person. And 2. Cuz I was afraid of hurting someone as much as I hurt M. It got so bad at one point where I grew incredibly paranoid and started hurting myself. But so far it only happened once.
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
1. Cuz I still care about M a lot and feel like I'd betray us both if I started something with another person. And 2. Cuz I was afraid of hurting someone as much as I hurt M. It got so bad at one point where I grew incredibly paranoid and started hurting myself. But so far it only happened once.
I've been taking a 6 month break from socials to reflect and think how I'll approach things from now on. Ever since the break was over, I was constantly scared that I'd run into someone who'd want to hit up on me, because I was incredibly scared of going into a new relationship.
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
I've been taking a 6 month break from socials to reflect and think how I'll approach things from now on. Ever since the break was over, I was constantly scared that I'd run into someone who'd want to hit up on me, because I was incredibly scared of going into a new relationship.
interacting with me if I made characters that were either of opposite sex, unattractive or minors. But these thoughts are my fault alone and very likely formed our of insecurity. But I still take full responsibility for what I did and continuing this. M was just busy most of the time with school.
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
interacting with me if I made characters that were either of opposite sex, unattractive or minors. But these thoughts are my fault alone and very likely formed our of insecurity. But I still take full responsibility for what I did and continuing this. M was just busy most of the time with school.
For some time, I even believed that I needed to make my OCs attractive cuz I was seeking the validation from M. Something to have it continue being interested in me. It was mainly a process I developed because of M always showing interest for any of my male characters. I thought it would stop
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
For some time, I even believed that I needed to make my OCs attractive cuz I was seeking the validation from M. Something to have it continue being interested in me. It was mainly a process I developed because of M always showing interest for any of my male characters. I thought it would stop
never showing the ability that I could change that that I care about it for who it is. I was never able to fight for it, especially when an ex-friend of my said "Fuck M". I even made it feel cheated on for using a romantic term on someone without romantic intention which was incredibly stupid of me
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
never showing the ability that I could change that that I care about it for who it is. I was never able to fight for it, especially when an ex-friend of my said "Fuck M". I even made it feel cheated on for using a romantic term on someone without romantic intention which was incredibly stupid of me
But things obviously kept going. It still disgusts me to this day that I kept it up for this long, because the only reason I was in a relationship with M was because I gen cared about it. In the end I made it feel like I was only after it for all this rp bullshit. I failed M as a partner for never
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
But things obviously kept going. It still disgusts me to this day that I kept it up for this long, because the only reason I was in a relationship with M was because I gen cared about it. In the end I made it feel like I was only after it for all this rp bullshit. I failed M as a partner for never
time, I would be there in M's dms to help it, even when it was late at night, making sure it's okay was my top priority. I talked with M about the whole sexuality thing again as well. I started to suspect that my sa trauma had a play in this, which still is no excuse. I don't remember what it said
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
time, I would be there in M's dms to help it, even when it was late at night, making sure it's okay was my top priority. I talked with M about the whole sexuality thing again as well. I started to suspect that my sa trauma had a play in this, which still is no excuse. I don't remember what it said
M asked if I was interested in a relationship. I already had a bit of a crush on M since I was 16, so ofc I'd say yes. For further context. The reason why we grew so close to begin with is cuz we often had each other to vent. If I had a problem, M would be there to comfort me. And if M had a rough
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
M asked if I was interested in a relationship. I already had a bit of a crush on M since I was 16, so ofc I'd say yes. For further context. The reason why we grew so close to begin with is cuz we often had each other to vent. If I had a problem, M would be there to comfort me. And if M had a rough
I immediately believed this would be the case. Idk what I was thinking I'm so fucking ashamed of this.
So we kept going, despite my constant concern. I kept telling myself that it would be okay cuz M said so but I should have known better as the older one. Eventually once I was 18 and M was 15,
So we kept going, despite my constant concern. I kept telling myself that it would be okay cuz M said so but I should have known better as the older one. Eventually once I was 18 and M was 15,
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
I immediately believed this would be the case. Idk what I was thinking I'm so fucking ashamed of this.
So we kept going, despite my constant concern. I kept telling myself that it would be okay cuz M said so but I should have known better as the older one. Eventually once I was 18 and M was 15,
So we kept going, despite my constant concern. I kept telling myself that it would be okay cuz M said so but I should have known better as the older one. Eventually once I was 18 and M was 15,
this kept going, until we got too far. Ofc none of us were aware what we did was incredibly wrong, especially I as the older one should have stopped this asap. Some months before my 18th birthday, I spoke out about my concern how we can't continue this once I turn 18. M assure me it will be fine and
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
this kept going, until we got too far. Ofc none of us were aware what we did was incredibly wrong, especially I as the older one should have stopped this asap. Some months before my 18th birthday, I spoke out about my concern how we can't continue this once I turn 18. M assure me it will be fine and
I was 17 at the time and M was 14. We already made started with some mature jokes. I don't remember who started it, but that doesn't make me any less guilty for participating. And not too long after, we started to explore in the more suggestive territory. This started off as a joke but unfortunately
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
I was 17 at the time and M was 14. We already made started with some mature jokes. I don't remember who started it, but that doesn't make me any less guilty for participating. And not too long after, we started to explore in the more suggestive territory. This started off as a joke but unfortunately
M and I started off as good friends. We met on a roblox group I was working for. We shared interest and talked about OCs. We eventually grew close friends through murder mystery style discord rp. We talked about our OCs and soon made our own little discord server for rp. It was practically a hobby.
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
M and I started off as good friends. We met on a roblox group I was working for. We shared interest and talked about OCs. We eventually grew close friends through murder mystery style discord rp. We talked about our OCs and soon made our own little discord server for rp. It was practically a hobby.
Just for the sake of not name dropping, I will randomly use the letter M and use it/ its pronouns.
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
Just for the sake of not name dropping, I will randomly use the letter M and use it/ its pronouns.
I apologize in advance if my english is a bit weird in here. I'm still very shaken up by the whole thing getting out.
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
I apologize in advance if my english is a bit weird in here. I'm still very shaken up by the whole thing getting out.
I just wanna come clear about this, because I don't think I'll be feeling better if I don't talk about it
I groomed someone 3 years younger than me.
I want to explain how this happened and what this did to me mentally recently. If you're uncomfortable with this topic, please skip and unfollow asap
I groomed someone 3 years younger than me.
I want to explain how this happened and what this did to me mentally recently. If you're uncomfortable with this topic, please skip and unfollow asap
January 15, 2026 at 2:21 AM
I just wanna come clear about this, because I don't think I'll be feeling better if I don't talk about it
I groomed someone 3 years younger than me.
I want to explain how this happened and what this did to me mentally recently. If you're uncomfortable with this topic, please skip and unfollow asap
I groomed someone 3 years younger than me.
I want to explain how this happened and what this did to me mentally recently. If you're uncomfortable with this topic, please skip and unfollow asap
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Hello!
Today we extend an offer to be apart of The Colony residents! Player applications will be open from now on for a limited time.
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December 27, 2025 at 3:32 AM
Hello!
Today we extend an offer to be apart of The Colony residents! Player applications will be open from now on for a limited time.
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Lil Minecraft project I'll be helping my friend @wormssoup.bsky.social with. Really excited for this one 💥
December 27, 2025 at 3:41 AM
Lil Minecraft project I'll be helping my friend @wormssoup.bsky.social with. Really excited for this one 💥
Idk if anyone following me still posts art on twt. I just saw a yt short about the latest update that allows people to edit your images with ai which I hope backfires big times
But from what they suggested, it's highly recommended to post your art as a still gif. Stay safe out there twt artists 🙏
But from what they suggested, it's highly recommended to post your art as a still gif. Stay safe out there twt artists 🙏
December 26, 2025 at 10:51 PM
Idk if anyone following me still posts art on twt. I just saw a yt short about the latest update that allows people to edit your images with ai which I hope backfires big times
But from what they suggested, it's highly recommended to post your art as a still gif. Stay safe out there twt artists 🙏
But from what they suggested, it's highly recommended to post your art as a still gif. Stay safe out there twt artists 🙏
Gonna try being more active here again yippee. But this silly art trend with my sona some weeks ago.
December 26, 2025 at 10:49 PM
Gonna try being more active here again yippee. But this silly art trend with my sona some weeks ago.