omgimneurospicyaf
@omgimneurospicyaf.bsky.social
Formerly omgimautisticaf
In preparing for my indefinite hiatus, I’ve decided I am going to archive all my existing posts except the ones still spreading around. I am asking for your help determining which posts should stay so people can still find the original source. Please comment “Keep” on the posts you think should stay
April 26, 2025 at 7:41 PM
In preparing for my indefinite hiatus, I’ve decided I am going to archive all my existing posts except the ones still spreading around. I am asking for your help determining which posts should stay so people can still find the original source. Please comment “Keep” on the posts you think should stay
I know I haven’t been posting again long, but I need to stop again.
Social media is only going to get more toxic. People are only going to get more traumatized & lash out. Misplaced blame & anger are only going to become more common.
It’s in my & my family’s best interests for me to bow out now.
Social media is only going to get more toxic. People are only going to get more traumatized & lash out. Misplaced blame & anger are only going to become more common.
It’s in my & my family’s best interests for me to bow out now.
April 26, 2025 at 5:38 PM
I know I haven’t been posting again long, but I need to stop again.
Social media is only going to get more toxic. People are only going to get more traumatized & lash out. Misplaced blame & anger are only going to become more common.
It’s in my & my family’s best interests for me to bow out now.
Social media is only going to get more toxic. People are only going to get more traumatized & lash out. Misplaced blame & anger are only going to become more common.
It’s in my & my family’s best interests for me to bow out now.
People believe brain injuries can cause autism. The struggles of autistics & brain injury survivors can be almost impossible to tell apart, so the deficits CAN look a LOT alike.
But autism is not just deficits & in my support groups I have not seen anyone develop similar BENEFITS after brain injury
But autism is not just deficits & in my support groups I have not seen anyone develop similar BENEFITS after brain injury
April 21, 2025 at 8:44 PM
People believe brain injuries can cause autism. The struggles of autistics & brain injury survivors can be almost impossible to tell apart, so the deficits CAN look a LOT alike.
But autism is not just deficits & in my support groups I have not seen anyone develop similar BENEFITS after brain injury
But autism is not just deficits & in my support groups I have not seen anyone develop similar BENEFITS after brain injury
How I learn I’ve been used again:
Me: *Give😀*
Me: *Give😀*
Me: *Give🙂*
Me: *Give🙂*
Me: *Give🫤*
Me: *Give😐*
Me: *Give😒*
Me: Hey, this seems one sided and I think that’s a problem
Them: Wow you’re really selfish
Me: *Give😀*
Me: *Give😀*
Me: *Give🙂*
Me: *Give🙂*
Me: *Give🫤*
Me: *Give😐*
Me: *Give😒*
Me: Hey, this seems one sided and I think that’s a problem
Them: Wow you’re really selfish
April 21, 2025 at 3:07 AM
How I learn I’ve been used again:
Me: *Give😀*
Me: *Give😀*
Me: *Give🙂*
Me: *Give🙂*
Me: *Give🫤*
Me: *Give😐*
Me: *Give😒*
Me: Hey, this seems one sided and I think that’s a problem
Them: Wow you’re really selfish
Me: *Give😀*
Me: *Give😀*
Me: *Give🙂*
Me: *Give🙂*
Me: *Give🫤*
Me: *Give😐*
Me: *Give😒*
Me: Hey, this seems one sided and I think that’s a problem
Them: Wow you’re really selfish
There’s a line between supporting someone and being used by them, and I can’t always tell where that line is. I have, historically, allowed people to use me for a very long time thinking I’m just being supportive before I realize the only thing they like about me is what they can get out of me.
April 20, 2025 at 9:22 PM
There’s a line between supporting someone and being used by them, and I can’t always tell where that line is. I have, historically, allowed people to use me for a very long time thinking I’m just being supportive before I realize the only thing they like about me is what they can get out of me.
The word “public” gets used to describe both public property & privately owned establishments that are open to the public. A lot of trolls justify harassing me because my account is “public”. Righteously indignant fools have even told me I have no right to set any kind of boundaries bc it’s public.
April 18, 2025 at 11:24 PM
The word “public” gets used to describe both public property & privately owned establishments that are open to the public. A lot of trolls justify harassing me because my account is “public”. Righteously indignant fools have even told me I have no right to set any kind of boundaries bc it’s public.
We autistic people often lament about how unreasonable neurotypical people’s social expectations are, but the truth is those unreasonable expectations also come from each other.
I mean it kinda makes sense, since a lot of us struggle with taking other people’s perspective - even each other’s.
I mean it kinda makes sense, since a lot of us struggle with taking other people’s perspective - even each other’s.
April 18, 2025 at 1:18 PM
We autistic people often lament about how unreasonable neurotypical people’s social expectations are, but the truth is those unreasonable expectations also come from each other.
I mean it kinda makes sense, since a lot of us struggle with taking other people’s perspective - even each other’s.
I mean it kinda makes sense, since a lot of us struggle with taking other people’s perspective - even each other’s.
“Think of how your post would make your followers feel!”
Okay, side-stepping that this account isn’t about them..
I’m autistic lol. You expect me to be able to predict how other people will feel? 🫠 C’mon.
I shouldn’t have to keep reminding people I’m autistic when that’s why you all follow me.
Okay, side-stepping that this account isn’t about them..
I’m autistic lol. You expect me to be able to predict how other people will feel? 🫠 C’mon.
I shouldn’t have to keep reminding people I’m autistic when that’s why you all follow me.
April 18, 2025 at 4:05 AM
“Think of how your post would make your followers feel!”
Okay, side-stepping that this account isn’t about them..
I’m autistic lol. You expect me to be able to predict how other people will feel? 🫠 C’mon.
I shouldn’t have to keep reminding people I’m autistic when that’s why you all follow me.
Okay, side-stepping that this account isn’t about them..
I’m autistic lol. You expect me to be able to predict how other people will feel? 🫠 C’mon.
I shouldn’t have to keep reminding people I’m autistic when that’s why you all follow me.
I am glad to know I am autistic. It helps me understand & take care of myself so much better than I did before.
I am also glad I decided not to seek a formal diagnosis after discussing the pros & cons with my doctor several years ago.
I am in fear for all formally diagnosed in America right now.
I am also glad I decided not to seek a formal diagnosis after discussing the pros & cons with my doctor several years ago.
I am in fear for all formally diagnosed in America right now.
April 18, 2025 at 1:34 AM
I am glad to know I am autistic. It helps me understand & take care of myself so much better than I did before.
I am also glad I decided not to seek a formal diagnosis after discussing the pros & cons with my doctor several years ago.
I am in fear for all formally diagnosed in America right now.
I am also glad I decided not to seek a formal diagnosis after discussing the pros & cons with my doctor several years ago.
I am in fear for all formally diagnosed in America right now.
Based on my own experiences, I personally believe burnout is actually a mild brain injury from overuse. If we can injure every other parts of our bodies from overuse, why would our brains be any different? Burnout heals slowly, like a brain injury.
I’ve experienced both, and this is my opinion.
I’ve experienced both, and this is my opinion.
April 13, 2025 at 7:24 PM
Based on my own experiences, I personally believe burnout is actually a mild brain injury from overuse. If we can injure every other parts of our bodies from overuse, why would our brains be any different? Burnout heals slowly, like a brain injury.
I’ve experienced both, and this is my opinion.
I’ve experienced both, and this is my opinion.
There is a clear connection between autism and hypermobility. For years, I wondered how the same thing that causes autism could cause joint laxity? Made no sense
But what if autism is actually hypermobility of brain waves? 🤔
Idk but it feels closer to making sense to me thinking of it this way
But what if autism is actually hypermobility of brain waves? 🤔
Idk but it feels closer to making sense to me thinking of it this way
April 9, 2025 at 2:11 AM
There is a clear connection between autism and hypermobility. For years, I wondered how the same thing that causes autism could cause joint laxity? Made no sense
But what if autism is actually hypermobility of brain waves? 🤔
Idk but it feels closer to making sense to me thinking of it this way
But what if autism is actually hypermobility of brain waves? 🤔
Idk but it feels closer to making sense to me thinking of it this way
I just sat down and went through some records my paralegal has been needing me to look at for a few weeks. For some reason, the task intimidated me and I procrastinated on it so long, I’m surprised she still puts up with me.
Anyway, it only took me like 90 seconds.
This is the worst part of ADHD.
Anyway, it only took me like 90 seconds.
This is the worst part of ADHD.
April 7, 2025 at 3:03 PM
I just sat down and went through some records my paralegal has been needing me to look at for a few weeks. For some reason, the task intimidated me and I procrastinated on it so long, I’m surprised she still puts up with me.
Anyway, it only took me like 90 seconds.
This is the worst part of ADHD.
Anyway, it only took me like 90 seconds.
This is the worst part of ADHD.
*Sets repeating alarm for 6:00 AM every weekday labeled TAKE MEDICATION 💊*
Me at 10:00 PM:
*Sets out morning meds on bedside table with drink so all I have to do is swallow them*
Me at 6:00 AM:
Hmm my phone is making random noise for no reason at all
*Turns off alarm without looking at phone*
Me at 10:00 PM:
*Sets out morning meds on bedside table with drink so all I have to do is swallow them*
Me at 6:00 AM:
Hmm my phone is making random noise for no reason at all
*Turns off alarm without looking at phone*
April 4, 2025 at 1:01 PM
*Sets repeating alarm for 6:00 AM every weekday labeled TAKE MEDICATION 💊*
Me at 10:00 PM:
*Sets out morning meds on bedside table with drink so all I have to do is swallow them*
Me at 6:00 AM:
Hmm my phone is making random noise for no reason at all
*Turns off alarm without looking at phone*
Me at 10:00 PM:
*Sets out morning meds on bedside table with drink so all I have to do is swallow them*
Me at 6:00 AM:
Hmm my phone is making random noise for no reason at all
*Turns off alarm without looking at phone*
Selecting a jury as an autistic lawyer is a special kind of nightmare. I know other people don’t think like I do. I know I can’t trust them to draw the same conclusions I think are obvious. But I don’t understand how they DO think, and trying to predict how they’ll interpret the evidence is 😰🤞🙏🥴🫣🫠🥺🤯
April 1, 2025 at 2:14 AM
Selecting a jury as an autistic lawyer is a special kind of nightmare. I know other people don’t think like I do. I know I can’t trust them to draw the same conclusions I think are obvious. But I don’t understand how they DO think, and trying to predict how they’ll interpret the evidence is 😰🤞🙏🥴🫣🫠🥺🤯
Fact: I need to rest all weekend to make it through the week
Fact: I constantly lie to myself about how much rest I need
Fact: I’m always planning to do something on the weekend only to be shocked at how exhausted I already am when the time comes
Fact: I want to do more, but need to rest more
Fact: I constantly lie to myself about how much rest I need
Fact: I’m always planning to do something on the weekend only to be shocked at how exhausted I already am when the time comes
Fact: I want to do more, but need to rest more
March 29, 2025 at 7:32 PM
Fact: I need to rest all weekend to make it through the week
Fact: I constantly lie to myself about how much rest I need
Fact: I’m always planning to do something on the weekend only to be shocked at how exhausted I already am when the time comes
Fact: I want to do more, but need to rest more
Fact: I constantly lie to myself about how much rest I need
Fact: I’m always planning to do something on the weekend only to be shocked at how exhausted I already am when the time comes
Fact: I want to do more, but need to rest more
How I thought cycle breaking would look:
1. Recognize cycle
2. Vow to break it
3. Do everything right instead
How it actually looks:
1. Recognize cycle
2. Vow to break it
3. Freeze from not knowing what to do instead
4. Trial & error to figure it out over time
5. Accountability along the way
1. Recognize cycle
2. Vow to break it
3. Do everything right instead
How it actually looks:
1. Recognize cycle
2. Vow to break it
3. Freeze from not knowing what to do instead
4. Trial & error to figure it out over time
5. Accountability along the way
March 29, 2025 at 3:30 AM
How I thought cycle breaking would look:
1. Recognize cycle
2. Vow to break it
3. Do everything right instead
How it actually looks:
1. Recognize cycle
2. Vow to break it
3. Freeze from not knowing what to do instead
4. Trial & error to figure it out over time
5. Accountability along the way
1. Recognize cycle
2. Vow to break it
3. Do everything right instead
How it actually looks:
1. Recognize cycle
2. Vow to break it
3. Freeze from not knowing what to do instead
4. Trial & error to figure it out over time
5. Accountability along the way
A lot of us (autistic people) are so blind to people’s flirting attempts that it takes aggressive pursuit for us to recognize someone’s interest. Unfortunately, that level of persistence is a red flag for potentially abusive or controlling behavior. Hence why we end up with abusive people so often.
March 26, 2025 at 9:26 PM
A lot of us (autistic people) are so blind to people’s flirting attempts that it takes aggressive pursuit for us to recognize someone’s interest. Unfortunately, that level of persistence is a red flag for potentially abusive or controlling behavior. Hence why we end up with abusive people so often.
I was watching tv when one character asked another “do you want to hang out with us sometime?” as an invitation & it gave me flashbacks.
When I was younger, rather than an invitation, I’d interpret it as “don’t you wish you could have this” & felt vulnerable & would deny having any interest in it.
When I was younger, rather than an invitation, I’d interpret it as “don’t you wish you could have this” & felt vulnerable & would deny having any interest in it.
March 23, 2025 at 7:00 PM
I was watching tv when one character asked another “do you want to hang out with us sometime?” as an invitation & it gave me flashbacks.
When I was younger, rather than an invitation, I’d interpret it as “don’t you wish you could have this” & felt vulnerable & would deny having any interest in it.
When I was younger, rather than an invitation, I’d interpret it as “don’t you wish you could have this” & felt vulnerable & would deny having any interest in it.
Bad day in court. Judge not only ruled against me but was condescending to me in front of my client.
I know my relationship with our local judges is important & not knowing if/how/when to address things like this is soooo stressful. I’ve been in tears, not over losing, but over how/if to address it
I know my relationship with our local judges is important & not knowing if/how/when to address things like this is soooo stressful. I’ve been in tears, not over losing, but over how/if to address it
March 19, 2025 at 12:20 AM
Bad day in court. Judge not only ruled against me but was condescending to me in front of my client.
I know my relationship with our local judges is important & not knowing if/how/when to address things like this is soooo stressful. I’ve been in tears, not over losing, but over how/if to address it
I know my relationship with our local judges is important & not knowing if/how/when to address things like this is soooo stressful. I’ve been in tears, not over losing, but over how/if to address it
✨5 Years Ago✨
Me: I’m having all these weird feelings/symptoms I can’t explain
My Therapist: While you do have anxiety, those symptoms you’re describing aren’t from anxiety
My Psychiatrist: You need a neurologist. What you’re describing is neurological.
Neurologist: Sounds like anxiety
Me: I’m having all these weird feelings/symptoms I can’t explain
My Therapist: While you do have anxiety, those symptoms you’re describing aren’t from anxiety
My Psychiatrist: You need a neurologist. What you’re describing is neurological.
Neurologist: Sounds like anxiety
March 17, 2025 at 10:22 PM
✨5 Years Ago✨
Me: I’m having all these weird feelings/symptoms I can’t explain
My Therapist: While you do have anxiety, those symptoms you’re describing aren’t from anxiety
My Psychiatrist: You need a neurologist. What you’re describing is neurological.
Neurologist: Sounds like anxiety
Me: I’m having all these weird feelings/symptoms I can’t explain
My Therapist: While you do have anxiety, those symptoms you’re describing aren’t from anxiety
My Psychiatrist: You need a neurologist. What you’re describing is neurological.
Neurologist: Sounds like anxiety
Person: How are you?
Me: Okay. Fine. Terrible. Horrified. Great. Good. Depressed as hell. Hopeful as fuck. Blissfully unaware. Well, maybe not blissfully. Maybe anxiously unaware?
Person: 😳
Me: I meant.. I don’t know?
Person: Me too. Me too 😕
Me: Okay. Fine. Terrible. Horrified. Great. Good. Depressed as hell. Hopeful as fuck. Blissfully unaware. Well, maybe not blissfully. Maybe anxiously unaware?
Person: 😳
Me: I meant.. I don’t know?
Person: Me too. Me too 😕
March 16, 2025 at 8:25 PM
Person: How are you?
Me: Okay. Fine. Terrible. Horrified. Great. Good. Depressed as hell. Hopeful as fuck. Blissfully unaware. Well, maybe not blissfully. Maybe anxiously unaware?
Person: 😳
Me: I meant.. I don’t know?
Person: Me too. Me too 😕
Me: Okay. Fine. Terrible. Horrified. Great. Good. Depressed as hell. Hopeful as fuck. Blissfully unaware. Well, maybe not blissfully. Maybe anxiously unaware?
Person: 😳
Me: I meant.. I don’t know?
Person: Me too. Me too 😕
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about generational trauma and parenting trends. Each generation of parents seems to try to protect their children from some type of trauma they endured while still passing on a lot of other traumas.
Let me see if I can ramble this out enough to make sense…
Let me see if I can ramble this out enough to make sense…
March 13, 2025 at 2:45 PM
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about generational trauma and parenting trends. Each generation of parents seems to try to protect their children from some type of trauma they endured while still passing on a lot of other traumas.
Let me see if I can ramble this out enough to make sense…
Let me see if I can ramble this out enough to make sense…
As a 40-something, it’s kinda wild seeing names I associated with my grandparents’ generation become popular baby names again.
“Here’s a picture of baby Hazel with Grandma Jessica!”
“Here’s a picture of baby Hazel with Grandma Jessica!”
March 12, 2025 at 2:21 PM
As a 40-something, it’s kinda wild seeing names I associated with my grandparents’ generation become popular baby names again.
“Here’s a picture of baby Hazel with Grandma Jessica!”
“Here’s a picture of baby Hazel with Grandma Jessica!”
In the 1960s when my dad was ~4 yrs old, my grandparents told his doctor he still wasn’t talking. The doctor said it was bc he was the baby of the family & he didn’t have to talk bc everyone did everything for him. He started speaking in full sentences at 5.
But, sure, autism didn’t exist before 🙄
But, sure, autism didn’t exist before 🙄
March 10, 2025 at 2:06 PM
In the 1960s when my dad was ~4 yrs old, my grandparents told his doctor he still wasn’t talking. The doctor said it was bc he was the baby of the family & he didn’t have to talk bc everyone did everything for him. He started speaking in full sentences at 5.
But, sure, autism didn’t exist before 🙄
But, sure, autism didn’t exist before 🙄
If you’re tired sad & scared
Clap your hands 👏 👏
If you’re tired sad & scared
Clap your hands 👏 👏
If you’re tired sad & scared
And you do not feel prepared
To be tired sad & scared
Clap your hands 👏 👏
Clap your hands 👏 👏
If you’re tired sad & scared
Clap your hands 👏 👏
If you’re tired sad & scared
And you do not feel prepared
To be tired sad & scared
Clap your hands 👏 👏
March 10, 2025 at 4:39 AM
If you’re tired sad & scared
Clap your hands 👏 👏
If you’re tired sad & scared
Clap your hands 👏 👏
If you’re tired sad & scared
And you do not feel prepared
To be tired sad & scared
Clap your hands 👏 👏
Clap your hands 👏 👏
If you’re tired sad & scared
Clap your hands 👏 👏
If you’re tired sad & scared
And you do not feel prepared
To be tired sad & scared
Clap your hands 👏 👏