Losing someone and it being partially your fault… will it ever feel okay again?

I can’t do it. I feel worthless. Tonight might be the night. If you never hear from me again… I’m sorry I wasn’t enough

I just wanna be the first choice for once in my life

Kinda wanna unalive after getting forgotten about so much.

The absolute mountainous amount of unholy things I want to do to her.

@ifreshmeat.bsky.social is kinda the raddest person I know.

I wish I wouldn’t self sabotage so much… Its killing me…