Rafael
@narcissists.bsky.social
he/they/it/none
may not be obvious that this a vent account, i post or repost light-hearted stuff once in a bluemoon. please don't interact or look around
may not be obvious that this a vent account, i post or repost light-hearted stuff once in a bluemoon. please don't interact or look around
How am I supposed to confirm my suspicion and seeks professional help when I can't even trust people anymore. I don't want to bother.
December 2, 2025 at 4:35 AM
How am I supposed to confirm my suspicion and seeks professional help when I can't even trust people anymore. I don't want to bother.
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depression is an illness. my suicidal thoughts this past week were like having a heart attack. we’ve got to start taking mental illnesses seriously & not as something you can exercise, keto diet, pray, or positive think your way out of. it’s a disability that needs accommodation
December 2, 2025 at 3:27 AM
depression is an illness. my suicidal thoughts this past week were like having a heart attack. we’ve got to start taking mental illnesses seriously & not as something you can exercise, keto diet, pray, or positive think your way out of. it’s a disability that needs accommodation
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"The microbee Computer-in-a-Book represents a novel, practical effective low cost way of advancing to disk drive capacity..." (Source.)
December 1, 2025 at 12:05 PM
"The microbee Computer-in-a-Book represents a novel, practical effective low cost way of advancing to disk drive capacity..." (Source.)
Reimu Hakurei is bipolar idk abt yall though
December 2, 2025 at 1:45 AM
Reimu Hakurei is bipolar idk abt yall though
Saiki Kusuo is a schizoid
December 1, 2025 at 5:50 AM
Saiki Kusuo is a schizoid
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"You'd expect one of the best-selling home computers in Japan to have a specification list as big as its memory. But the Toshiba HX10 doesn't just limit itself to that." (Source.)
November 30, 2025 at 6:05 PM
"You'd expect one of the best-selling home computers in Japan to have a specification list as big as its memory. But the Toshiba HX10 doesn't just limit itself to that." (Source.)
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Going through personality disorder subreddits and i'm surprised just how tame the npd sub is. They're actually venting about trauma and their personal experience like normal. It's not perfect but i was thinking there's going to be more trouble coming from it considering how sitgmatized they are.
November 25, 2025 at 10:13 AM
Going through personality disorder subreddits and i'm surprised just how tame the npd sub is. They're actually venting about trauma and their personal experience like normal. It's not perfect but i was thinking there's going to be more trouble coming from it considering how sitgmatized they are.
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The greatest lie the 80s told young computer users is that programming would be as magical an experience as the programming textbooks of the 80s promised.
November 18, 2025 at 12:05 AM
The greatest lie the 80s told young computer users is that programming would be as magical an experience as the programming textbooks of the 80s promised.
Evangelicals under the pentecostal churches are all brainwashed cult members, and anyone who unironically takes that cult seriously are already deep into religious psychosis.
November 18, 2025 at 12:45 AM
Evangelicals under the pentecostal churches are all brainwashed cult members, and anyone who unironically takes that cult seriously are already deep into religious psychosis.
Atleast i'm depressed over serious shit like idk my entire fucking future gone now that i have failed instead of crying because of other people. Instead of guilt, i want to die and either be reborn as the perfect character or fall into a deep comfortable slumber forever.
I feel like i gotta die i honestly don't think i got it in me to continue
November 13, 2025 at 4:38 PM
Atleast i'm depressed over serious shit like idk my entire fucking future gone now that i have failed instead of crying because of other people. Instead of guilt, i want to die and either be reborn as the perfect character or fall into a deep comfortable slumber forever.
I feel like i gotta die i honestly don't think i got it in me to continue
November 13, 2025 at 4:35 PM
I feel like i gotta die i honestly don't think i got it in me to continue
avpd and szpd is fake asf because i cannot fucking tell the difference what the hell
November 13, 2025 at 3:54 PM
avpd and szpd is fake asf because i cannot fucking tell the difference what the hell
There really is a reason why it's called a disorder
November 13, 2025 at 3:39 PM
There really is a reason why it's called a disorder
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Look at this goated Patchouli Knowledge art ! ! !
November 13, 2025 at 6:36 AM
Look at this goated Patchouli Knowledge art ! ! !
Either recurrent major depression is real or my life is just terrible
November 13, 2025 at 3:33 PM
Either recurrent major depression is real or my life is just terrible
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Kevin and Kell was one of the first webcomics, but before that, it was a print comic for the BBS/ISP industry magazine Boardwatch. (Source.)
November 13, 2025 at 12:05 PM
Kevin and Kell was one of the first webcomics, but before that, it was a print comic for the BBS/ISP industry magazine Boardwatch. (Source.)
Do not eat 2 people worth of food and stays up until one and a half vro, worst shot i've ever done what the fuck was i on last night
November 9, 2025 at 10:29 PM
Do not eat 2 people worth of food and stays up until one and a half vro, worst shot i've ever done what the fuck was i on last night
I really don't want to self harm if it's too painful or gross and ends up being a huge pain later, but I also don't want to hurt myself so lightly and in a way that won't even leave a visible in my body, they won't care unless there are proofs.
November 9, 2025 at 5:24 PM
I really don't want to self harm if it's too painful or gross and ends up being a huge pain later, but I also don't want to hurt myself so lightly and in a way that won't even leave a visible in my body, they won't care unless there are proofs.
How do I get professional help when I'm starting to distrust psychologists and any adults working in health care? None of them listens to me, none of them UNDERSTAND it's so fucking insane like why are they even working there then
November 9, 2025 at 5:03 PM
How do I get professional help when I'm starting to distrust psychologists and any adults working in health care? None of them listens to me, none of them UNDERSTAND it's so fucking insane like why are they even working there then
I hate people! Narcissism rules! Fuck you guys! Go eat a turd and die somewhere out of my sight
November 9, 2025 at 5:01 PM
I hate people! Narcissism rules! Fuck you guys! Go eat a turd and die somewhere out of my sight
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Antikythera mechanism (2nd century BC; reconstruction 2012, Tony Freeth)
November 8, 2025 at 6:05 PM
Antikythera mechanism (2nd century BC; reconstruction 2012, Tony Freeth)
I am interested in people enough to the point of $#&+@*!? them so that's not very schizoid of me but I am also not interested in knowing then directly nor do I want to have anything to do with them since I can live my entire life without it which is apparently very schizoid of me
November 9, 2025 at 4:58 PM
I am interested in people enough to the point of $#&+@*!? them so that's not very schizoid of me but I am also not interested in knowing then directly nor do I want to have anything to do with them since I can live my entire life without it which is apparently very schizoid of me
Too normal to be a schizoid, also too weird and fucked to not be mentally ill. What the hell?
November 9, 2025 at 4:52 PM
Too normal to be a schizoid, also too weird and fucked to not be mentally ill. What the hell?
Not caring about societal standard whatever bullshit but caring about others enough for me to change myself, wonder why
November 9, 2025 at 4:51 PM
Not caring about societal standard whatever bullshit but caring about others enough for me to change myself, wonder why