Lilyana Nevermore 🦇🍷【ECLIPSE】
@nakanaichi.bsky.social
🌘 ( @eclipse-vt.bsky.social )🌘 #Vgen🦇Vampire Vtuber🦇 ♥︎ Lady of Nobility looking to reclaim the power and authority she led, won’t you join the takeover? 🔞
March 10, 2025 at 2:04 PM
HI BLUESKY I FORGOR YOU
March 10, 2025 at 2:02 PM
HI BLUESKY I FORGOR YOU
Reposted by Lilyana Nevermore 🦇🍷【ECLIPSE】
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
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𝑾𝑯𝑶 𝑰𝑺 𝑬𝑪𝑳𝑰𝑷𝑺𝑬?
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𝑾𝑯𝑶 𝑰𝑺 𝑬𝑪𝑳𝑰𝑷𝑺𝑬?
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𝑾𝑯𝑶 𝑰𝑺 𝑬𝑪𝑳𝑰𝑷𝑺𝑬?
YouTube video by EclipseVT
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January 29, 2025 at 8:06 PM
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
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𝑾𝑯𝑶 𝑰𝑺 𝑬𝑪𝑳𝑰𝑷𝑺𝑬?
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𝑾𝑯𝑶 𝑰𝑺 𝑬𝑪𝑳𝑰𝑷𝑺𝑬?
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Left the house for hair dye and ended up at my boyfriend’s house for dinner! Didn’t expect to even leave the house today!✨
December 16, 2024 at 9:42 PM
Left the house for hair dye and ended up at my boyfriend’s house for dinner! Didn’t expect to even leave the house today!✨
I do not want to share too many real mental health details but this is the ✨side acc✨ low key so
I had the most horrible day and made an egregiously abysmal decision/mistake at work that very nearly got me fired. I then spent the entire day with debilitating and severe anxiety and paranoia over it
I had the most horrible day and made an egregiously abysmal decision/mistake at work that very nearly got me fired. I then spent the entire day with debilitating and severe anxiety and paranoia over it
December 3, 2024 at 6:34 AM
I do not want to share too many real mental health details but this is the ✨side acc✨ low key so
I had the most horrible day and made an egregiously abysmal decision/mistake at work that very nearly got me fired. I then spent the entire day with debilitating and severe anxiety and paranoia over it
I had the most horrible day and made an egregiously abysmal decision/mistake at work that very nearly got me fired. I then spent the entire day with debilitating and severe anxiety and paranoia over it
Reposted by Lilyana Nevermore 🦇🍷【ECLIPSE】
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
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𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑬𝑪𝑳𝑰𝑷𝑺𝑬 𝑪𝑨𝑺𝑻𝑺 𝑰𝑻𝑺 𝑳𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑾𝑬 𝑬𝑴𝑬𝑹𝑮𝑬 𝑭𝑹𝑶𝑴 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑺𝑯𝑨𝑫𝑶𝑾𝑺
𝕎𝔸𝕋ℂℍ 𝔽𝕆ℝ 𝕌𝕊...
🗡️👾👺🖤🦇🍷
☾ #EclipseVT_RISE ☽
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT
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𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑬𝑪𝑳𝑰𝑷𝑺𝑬 𝑪𝑨𝑺𝑻𝑺 𝑰𝑻𝑺 𝑳𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑾𝑬 𝑬𝑴𝑬𝑹𝑮𝑬 𝑭𝑹𝑶𝑴 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑺𝑯𝑨𝑫𝑶𝑾𝑺
𝕎𝔸𝕋ℂℍ 𝔽𝕆ℝ 𝕌𝕊...
🗡️👾👺🖤🦇🍷
☾ #EclipseVT_RISE ☽
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT
December 2, 2024 at 9:55 PM
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
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𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑬𝑪𝑳𝑰𝑷𝑺𝑬 𝑪𝑨𝑺𝑻𝑺 𝑰𝑻𝑺 𝑳𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑾𝑬 𝑬𝑴𝑬𝑹𝑮𝑬 𝑭𝑹𝑶𝑴 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑺𝑯𝑨𝑫𝑶𝑾𝑺
𝕎𝔸𝕋ℂℍ 𝔽𝕆ℝ 𝕌𝕊...
🗡️👾👺🖤🦇🍷
☾ #EclipseVT_RISE ☽
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT
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𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑬𝑪𝑳𝑰𝑷𝑺𝑬 𝑪𝑨𝑺𝑻𝑺 𝑰𝑻𝑺 𝑳𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑾𝑬 𝑬𝑴𝑬𝑹𝑮𝑬 𝑭𝑹𝑶𝑴 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑺𝑯𝑨𝑫𝑶𝑾𝑺
𝕎𝔸𝕋ℂℍ 𝔽𝕆ℝ 𝕌𝕊...
🗡️👾👺🖤🦇🍷
☾ #EclipseVT_RISE ☽
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT
=w= chat….we got a Christmas tree and my allergies…lord help me.
My throat feels like I’m swallowing broken glass and my nose is so stuffy
Normally I would say I’m getting sick but i legitimately had these symptoms a week ago and it was just allergies…nature is out to get me
My throat feels like I’m swallowing broken glass and my nose is so stuffy
Normally I would say I’m getting sick but i legitimately had these symptoms a week ago and it was just allergies…nature is out to get me
December 2, 2024 at 5:49 AM
=w= chat….we got a Christmas tree and my allergies…lord help me.
My throat feels like I’m swallowing broken glass and my nose is so stuffy
Normally I would say I’m getting sick but i legitimately had these symptoms a week ago and it was just allergies…nature is out to get me
My throat feels like I’m swallowing broken glass and my nose is so stuffy
Normally I would say I’m getting sick but i legitimately had these symptoms a week ago and it was just allergies…nature is out to get me
Reposted by Lilyana Nevermore 🦇🍷【ECLIPSE】
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
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𝕀'𝕃𝕃 𝔾𝕀𝕍𝔼 𝕐𝕆𝕌 𝔸𝕃𝕃 𝕆𝔽 𝕄𝕐 𝕃𝕆𝕍𝔼 ! ♡
𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑭𝑬, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹!
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𝕀'𝕃𝕃 𝔾𝕀𝕍𝔼 𝕐𝕆𝕌 𝔸𝕃𝕃 𝕆𝔽 𝕄𝕐 𝕃𝕆𝕍𝔼 ! ♡
𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑭𝑬, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹!
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December 1, 2024 at 7:50 PM
Reposted by Lilyana Nevermore 🦇🍷【ECLIPSE】
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
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! 𝑾𝑬 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑻𝑶𝑮𝑬𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑹 !
♡ 𝔻𝔼𝕍𝕆𝕋𝔼 𝕋𝕆 𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝔼ℂ𝕃𝕀ℙ𝕊𝔼 ♡
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! 𝑾𝑬 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑻𝑶𝑮𝑬𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑹 !
♡ 𝔻𝔼𝕍𝕆𝕋𝔼 𝕋𝕆 𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝔼ℂ𝕃𝕀ℙ𝕊𝔼 ♡
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November 26, 2024 at 7:31 PM
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
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! 𝑾𝑬 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑻𝑶𝑮𝑬𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑹 !
♡ 𝔻𝔼𝕍𝕆𝕋𝔼 𝕋𝕆 𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝔼ℂ𝕃𝕀ℙ𝕊𝔼 ♡
☾ #EclipseVT_RISE ☽
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT #VTUBERS
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! 𝑾𝑬 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑻𝑶𝑮𝑬𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑹 !
♡ 𝔻𝔼𝕍𝕆𝕋𝔼 𝕋𝕆 𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝔼ℂ𝕃𝕀ℙ𝕊𝔼 ♡
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Reposted by Lilyana Nevermore 🦇🍷【ECLIPSE】
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
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𝕀 𝔽𝔼𝔼𝕃 𝕋ℍ𝕀ℝ𝕊𝕋𝕐 𝕋𝕆𝔻𝔸𝕐...
𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑭𝑬, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹!
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT #VTUBERS
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𝕀 𝔽𝔼𝔼𝕃 𝕋ℍ𝕀ℝ𝕊𝕋𝕐 𝕋𝕆𝔻𝔸𝕐...
𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑭𝑬, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹!
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November 27, 2024 at 7:53 PM
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
🌘
𝕀 𝔽𝔼𝔼𝕃 𝕋ℍ𝕀ℝ𝕊𝕋𝕐 𝕋𝕆𝔻𝔸𝕐...
𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑭𝑬, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹!
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☾ #EclipseVT_RISE ☽
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT #VTUBERS
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𝕀 𝔽𝔼𝔼𝕃 𝕋ℍ𝕀ℝ𝕊𝕋𝕐 𝕋𝕆𝔻𝔸𝕐...
𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑭𝑬, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹!
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☾ #EclipseVT_RISE ☽
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT #VTUBERS
Reposted by Lilyana Nevermore 🦇🍷【ECLIPSE】
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
🌘
𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝕌ℕ𝕀𝕍𝔼ℝ𝕊𝔼 𝔸𝕎𝔸𝕀𝕋𝕊 𝕄𝔼
𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑭𝑬, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹!
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT #VTUBERS
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𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝕌ℕ𝕀𝕍𝔼ℝ𝕊𝔼 𝔸𝕎𝔸𝕀𝕋𝕊 𝕄𝔼
𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑭𝑬, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹!
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT #VTUBERS
November 29, 2024 at 6:07 PM
≫ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒 ≪
🌘
𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝕌ℕ𝕀𝕍𝔼ℝ𝕊𝔼 𝔸𝕎𝔸𝕀𝕋𝕊 𝕄𝔼
𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑭𝑬, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹!
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☾ #EclipseVT_RISE ☽
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT #VTUBERS
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𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝕌ℕ𝕀𝕍𝔼ℝ𝕊𝔼 𝔸𝕎𝔸𝕀𝕋𝕊 𝕄𝔼
𝑳𝑬𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑭𝑬, 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑰'𝑳𝑳 𝑹𝑼𝑳𝑬 𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹!
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☾ #EclipseVT_RISE ☽
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#VTUBER #VTUBERGROUP #VTUBERSUPPORT #VTUBERS
Reposted by Lilyana Nevermore 🦇🍷【ECLIPSE】
ARKit and physics demo of the new model i made for @lilpouty.bsky.social !
Pouty designed the outfit and did the texture for the skin, I modeled all the clothes and hair, added and edited the ARKit blendshapes, and even mocapped for this video!
follow for more!!
#b3d #blender #vroidstudio #vtuber
Pouty designed the outfit and did the texture for the skin, I modeled all the clothes and hair, added and edited the ARKit blendshapes, and even mocapped for this video!
follow for more!!
#b3d #blender #vroidstudio #vtuber
November 26, 2024 at 11:00 PM
ARKit and physics demo of the new model i made for @lilpouty.bsky.social !
Pouty designed the outfit and did the texture for the skin, I modeled all the clothes and hair, added and edited the ARKit blendshapes, and even mocapped for this video!
follow for more!!
#b3d #blender #vroidstudio #vtuber
Pouty designed the outfit and did the texture for the skin, I modeled all the clothes and hair, added and edited the ARKit blendshapes, and even mocapped for this video!
follow for more!!
#b3d #blender #vroidstudio #vtuber
New outfit reveal TOMORROW!!! (And my grand return also!)
╰(*´︶`*)╯♡
Are you excited?
Don’t miss it!!
‼️7:00PM EST‼️
╰(*´︶`*)╯♡
Are you excited?
Don’t miss it!!
‼️7:00PM EST‼️
November 23, 2024 at 5:36 PM
New outfit reveal TOMORROW!!! (And my grand return also!)
╰(*´︶`*)╯♡
Are you excited?
Don’t miss it!!
‼️7:00PM EST‼️
╰(*´︶`*)╯♡
Are you excited?
Don’t miss it!!
‼️7:00PM EST‼️
I keep crying at work because it’s so bad today. Genuinely what the hell. I should not be crying at work.
November 22, 2024 at 9:31 PM
I keep crying at work because it’s so bad today. Genuinely what the hell. I should not be crying at work.
Work is absolutely horrific. Horrible. I cannot even put into words how this job is killing me it’s so bad. Pls send me pictures of characters I loke
November 22, 2024 at 8:07 PM
Work is absolutely horrific. Horrible. I cannot even put into words how this job is killing me it’s so bad. Pls send me pictures of characters I loke
Have you heard?!
There’s a new 5⭐️ Nakanaichi Outfit Banner!
THATS RIGHT IM MAKING A GRAND RETURN WITH A NEW OUTFIT DEBUT!
Including this new outfit, there’s changes to the makeup as well as some slight stream updates and new graphics!
Place your predictions!
‼️Sunday 11/24‼️
#vtuber #vtuberoutfit
There’s a new 5⭐️ Nakanaichi Outfit Banner!
THATS RIGHT IM MAKING A GRAND RETURN WITH A NEW OUTFIT DEBUT!
Including this new outfit, there’s changes to the makeup as well as some slight stream updates and new graphics!
Place your predictions!
‼️Sunday 11/24‼️
#vtuber #vtuberoutfit
November 19, 2024 at 11:55 PM
Have you heard?!
There’s a new 5⭐️ Nakanaichi Outfit Banner!
THATS RIGHT IM MAKING A GRAND RETURN WITH A NEW OUTFIT DEBUT!
Including this new outfit, there’s changes to the makeup as well as some slight stream updates and new graphics!
Place your predictions!
‼️Sunday 11/24‼️
#vtuber #vtuberoutfit
There’s a new 5⭐️ Nakanaichi Outfit Banner!
THATS RIGHT IM MAKING A GRAND RETURN WITH A NEW OUTFIT DEBUT!
Including this new outfit, there’s changes to the makeup as well as some slight stream updates and new graphics!
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‼️Sunday 11/24‼️
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I made a chart of my “she’s so me!” Characters for funsies and i literally can’t post it anywhere; I will get flamed alive LOL
November 15, 2024 at 4:32 AM
I made a chart of my “she’s so me!” Characters for funsies and i literally can’t post it anywhere; I will get flamed alive LOL
Yesterday this really nice coworker was trying to talk to me, and he was really nice and super extroverted, but I was so socially anxious I accidentally sliced my fingers with a box cutter trying to open a package….. :(
a girl with brown hair and a red bow tie has a swirl in her eyes
ALT: a girl with brown hair and a red bow tie has a swirl in her eyes
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November 14, 2024 at 3:07 PM
Yesterday this really nice coworker was trying to talk to me, and he was really nice and super extroverted, but I was so socially anxious I accidentally sliced my fingers with a box cutter trying to open a package….. :(
Think I might be feeling well enough to try and speak to people again 👍🏻
November 14, 2024 at 1:14 AM
Think I might be feeling well enough to try and speak to people again 👍🏻
The grief of losing a pet is so hard. He looked so beautiful and peaceful sleeping in the box they placed him in, a flower held between his paw. I keep thinking about it. I hope he knows how loved he was
November 10, 2024 at 6:14 PM
The grief of losing a pet is so hard. He looked so beautiful and peaceful sleeping in the box they placed him in, a flower held between his paw. I keep thinking about it. I hope he knows how loved he was
I need to learn to be a little less kind and block people leeching off my positive energy
November 7, 2024 at 3:57 AM
I need to learn to be a little less kind and block people leeching off my positive energy
Sometimes (actually every time) I listen to Miku I just cry and cry and cry super hard because I just love Hatsune Miku SO much
What a wonderful thing that I’m able to experience something in my life that brings me that much genuine happiness every day
What a wonderful thing that I’m able to experience something in my life that brings me that much genuine happiness every day
November 4, 2024 at 5:14 AM
Sometimes (actually every time) I listen to Miku I just cry and cry and cry super hard because I just love Hatsune Miku SO much
What a wonderful thing that I’m able to experience something in my life that brings me that much genuine happiness every day
What a wonderful thing that I’m able to experience something in my life that brings me that much genuine happiness every day
I actually full ugly sobbed over being able to hold my favorite artist’s work in my hands
November 1, 2024 at 7:01 PM
I actually full ugly sobbed over being able to hold my favorite artist’s work in my hands