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I hate talking about myself I hate talking about myself I want to talk about myself I wish I didn't have so many issues talking about myself. Don't make me talk about myself or I'm going to lose it.
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@mumblesandincohere.bsky.social
· Nov 28
Goal until the end of the year is to do at least one more thing that I would have never done otherwise. It will be something that may come with regrets! But the positives could be cool if things go well.
Now I just have to get over my crippling social anxiety so that I may actually do it!!!!!!
Now I just have to get over my crippling social anxiety so that I may actually do it!!!!!!
i was looking through what i had on my phone yesterday night and i saw pictures of myself from 3-2 years ago
was a bit surreal, made me kind of happy that i am no longer who i was back then... at least looks wise
i also look insanely uncomfortable in all of them!!! wonder why!
was a bit surreal, made me kind of happy that i am no longer who i was back then... at least looks wise
i also look insanely uncomfortable in all of them!!! wonder why!
February 17, 2026 at 10:37 PM
i was looking through what i had on my phone yesterday night and i saw pictures of myself from 3-2 years ago
was a bit surreal, made me kind of happy that i am no longer who i was back then... at least looks wise
i also look insanely uncomfortable in all of them!!! wonder why!
was a bit surreal, made me kind of happy that i am no longer who i was back then... at least looks wise
i also look insanely uncomfortable in all of them!!! wonder why!
i want to cry but there is no place for me to do so
i was isolated the last time i cried, i was in an awful place mentally but it was nice, just having all that space to myself as nice, i miss it
i was isolated the last time i cried, i was in an awful place mentally but it was nice, just having all that space to myself as nice, i miss it
February 17, 2026 at 10:06 PM
i want to cry but there is no place for me to do so
i was isolated the last time i cried, i was in an awful place mentally but it was nice, just having all that space to myself as nice, i miss it
i was isolated the last time i cried, i was in an awful place mentally but it was nice, just having all that space to myself as nice, i miss it
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
February 16, 2026 at 10:08 PM
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
my life is nothing yet i feel this constant pressure everyday
no expectations of myself, nothing to do, but my mind is being tortured
there is nothing to look forward to, no distractions, too unsure of myself
no expectations of myself, nothing to do, but my mind is being tortured
there is nothing to look forward to, no distractions, too unsure of myself
February 16, 2026 at 10:04 PM
my life is nothing yet i feel this constant pressure everyday
no expectations of myself, nothing to do, but my mind is being tortured
there is nothing to look forward to, no distractions, too unsure of myself
no expectations of myself, nothing to do, but my mind is being tortured
there is nothing to look forward to, no distractions, too unsure of myself
something something alone etc etc blah blah
once again got reminded yesterday that i really should just be more comfortable being myself, and certainly shouldn't be afraid of it either
it's a struggle since i am afraid with regards to certain parts of me
once again got reminded yesterday that i really should just be more comfortable being myself, and certainly shouldn't be afraid of it either
it's a struggle since i am afraid with regards to certain parts of me
February 14, 2026 at 10:27 PM
something something alone etc etc blah blah
once again got reminded yesterday that i really should just be more comfortable being myself, and certainly shouldn't be afraid of it either
it's a struggle since i am afraid with regards to certain parts of me
once again got reminded yesterday that i really should just be more comfortable being myself, and certainly shouldn't be afraid of it either
it's a struggle since i am afraid with regards to certain parts of me
never expected to get to a point where I wish for a different life, I always have been on the whole "my experiences shape me" train of thought so I never wanted my past to be something else
I can barely function as a person, I wish things were different
I can barely function as a person, I wish things were different
February 11, 2026 at 8:46 PM
never expected to get to a point where I wish for a different life, I always have been on the whole "my experiences shape me" train of thought so I never wanted my past to be something else
I can barely function as a person, I wish things were different
I can barely function as a person, I wish things were different
think i have finally found a routine that works nicely for my hair (which styles it in a way i don't hate)
only took me a year and spending a bunch on product...
i'd still rather do something else with my hair out of personal preference, will have to look into that again some day
only took me a year and spending a bunch on product...
i'd still rather do something else with my hair out of personal preference, will have to look into that again some day
February 4, 2026 at 8:13 AM
think i have finally found a routine that works nicely for my hair (which styles it in a way i don't hate)
only took me a year and spending a bunch on product...
i'd still rather do something else with my hair out of personal preference, will have to look into that again some day
only took me a year and spending a bunch on product...
i'd still rather do something else with my hair out of personal preference, will have to look into that again some day
it was lovely to just exist throughout the weekend, I forgot about all my worries and anxieties
didn't expect to wish for a time where I wanted to be stuck inside with no one around me
didn't expect to wish for a time where I wanted to be stuck inside with no one around me
February 2, 2026 at 2:50 PM
it was lovely to just exist throughout the weekend, I forgot about all my worries and anxieties
didn't expect to wish for a time where I wanted to be stuck inside with no one around me
didn't expect to wish for a time where I wanted to be stuck inside with no one around me
looking at my lastfm 2025 report...
January 29, 2026 at 8:12 AM
looking at my lastfm 2025 report...
sending my iban for the third time so i can get my money past the 90 day deadline... how do people live like this?
January 27, 2026 at 2:15 PM
sending my iban for the third time so i can get my money past the 90 day deadline... how do people live like this?
world where i can sort my hair out and do what i want
January 27, 2026 at 9:09 AM
world where i can sort my hair out and do what i want
witnessed someone casually cut in line today while waiting for the bus and now i can't cope with the fact that lines function on a system of trust and people can just come and do as they please
January 26, 2026 at 8:56 PM
witnessed someone casually cut in line today while waiting for the bus and now i can't cope with the fact that lines function on a system of trust and people can just come and do as they please
i hope i find the courage to kill myself soon <3
January 15, 2026 at 9:53 PM
i hope i find the courage to kill myself soon <3
maybe i should have, or maybe it's meant to happen soon
January 15, 2026 at 8:55 AM
maybe i should have, or maybe it's meant to happen soon
bye bye bye bye bye bye die die die die just die
i hope i can be a better person in the future
the fear that this may have happened eventually
it's like no no nononono no, idk what life is but i'll find out
experiences shape a person and i wish i never was the former, letmebeatpeaceicantbe atpeace
i hope i can be a better person in the future
the fear that this may have happened eventually
it's like no no nononono no, idk what life is but i'll find out
experiences shape a person and i wish i never was the former, letmebeatpeaceicantbe atpeace
January 13, 2026 at 11:51 AM
bye bye bye bye bye bye die die die die just die
i hope i can be a better person in the future
the fear that this may have happened eventually
it's like no no nononono no, idk what life is but i'll find out
experiences shape a person and i wish i never was the former, letmebeatpeaceicantbe atpeace
i hope i can be a better person in the future
the fear that this may have happened eventually
it's like no no nononono no, idk what life is but i'll find out
experiences shape a person and i wish i never was the former, letmebeatpeaceicantbe atpeace
when cute gorgeous beautiful person talks to you but you maybe somehow fuck up and fumbled and should have seen if they wanted to eat or something and gotten alone time with them because they won't stop somewhat being around you yet possibly too shy or scared to be the one to approach/ask things
January 11, 2026 at 5:57 PM
when cute gorgeous beautiful person talks to you but you maybe somehow fuck up and fumbled and should have seen if they wanted to eat or something and gotten alone time with them because they won't stop somewhat being around you yet possibly too shy or scared to be the one to approach/ask things
i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry
January 5, 2026 at 8:00 PM
i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry i want to cry
3 days in and i haven't felt like killing myself yet <3
January 3, 2026 at 10:16 AM
3 days in and i haven't felt like killing myself yet <3
never did what i wanted to do last month! don't feel bad about it, always loops back to just doing things for myself and being the person i want to be
being me makes me happy
being me makes me happy
January 1, 2026 at 10:52 AM
never did what i wanted to do last month! don't feel bad about it, always loops back to just doing things for myself and being the person i want to be
being me makes me happy
being me makes me happy
honestly my 2026 goal is looking to be recording an EP (hopefully)
December 28, 2025 at 2:53 PM
honestly my 2026 goal is looking to be recording an EP (hopefully)
I don't think this is happening, at least I have been capable of reading a ~30 page book.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i can do it still maybe but 21 days left and counting....
Goal until the end of the year is to do at least one more thing that I would have never done otherwise. It will be something that may come with regrets! But the positives could be cool if things go well.
Now I just have to get over my crippling social anxiety so that I may actually do it!!!!!!
Now I just have to get over my crippling social anxiety so that I may actually do it!!!!!!
December 27, 2025 at 10:35 AM
I don't think this is happening, at least I have been capable of reading a ~30 page book.
holy shit i wasn't hallucinating
there really was a big ass fucking flying creature in my room
there really was a big ass fucking flying creature in my room
December 21, 2025 at 1:12 PM
holy shit i wasn't hallucinating
there really was a big ass fucking flying creature in my room
there really was a big ass fucking flying creature in my room
if i can get through these last 2 weeks without killing myself then i'd be surprised
December 19, 2025 at 9:00 PM
if i can get through these last 2 weeks without killing myself then i'd be surprised
I don't feel bad but there's this urge to kill myself out of hatred for someone else. What would hurt them the most? Loss of control, an action done solely to state they will not get what they want.
A glimpse of happiness is all I ever wanted; I've been at ease since Friday, so I am content.
Yes.
A glimpse of happiness is all I ever wanted; I've been at ease since Friday, so I am content.
Yes.
December 14, 2025 at 10:16 PM
I don't feel bad but there's this urge to kill myself out of hatred for someone else. What would hurt them the most? Loss of control, an action done solely to state they will not get what they want.
A glimpse of happiness is all I ever wanted; I've been at ease since Friday, so I am content.
Yes.
A glimpse of happiness is all I ever wanted; I've been at ease since Friday, so I am content.
Yes.