Life is slowly getting better

Life is having its ups and downs. My traumas are coming back and my partner is still showing me my future is so much better.

I am so incredibly anxious right now. I am trying everything to get it to go away. Therapy is soon though and maybe that will help.

I am struggling with my mental health because my boyfriend went to sleep and now my mind is telling me my life is going to fall apart even though everything is actually ok. The struggle is real.

I want to know why I'm not good enough. I want to know why we can't just talk stuff through. Why can you not admit you were hurtful. Why can't we talk.

I am meeting my new therapist today. I'm scared but excited that I'm finally going to get better. Again.

This is who helps me not feel alone. This little goth ass bitch makes me feel like I am needed when I feel like I have sunk too far. Somebody needs me.

The thoughts completely immobilize me. Every waking moment I have to find constant distractions or else my mind goes to the dark place. I need an escape

I wish I could stop feeling so fucking horrible. I wish I had a single person I could talk to. I feel like I don't matter.

This little girl helps me feel not so alone.

I'm using this as my journal because I doubt anyone I know will find me. I just want to get my pain off my chest. The depression is getting worse. I am struggling to do every day tasks like shower and drink water. I need help. Somebody.

I wish my mind would stop. Every single day I live thinking about why I'm not good enough. Why did you have to shove that in my face? I want to die every time it pops up in my mind. I want the pain to stop. I wish I could feel heard. I wish I had someone to talk with. I wish I had a support system.

I love them pretty girls. 💕