to see the nurse
today
I'd been kept
in the #dark
about a few
things
she wasn't
an ordinary nurse
but
a super
qualified nurse
she told me
I had a chest infection
prescribing
antibiotics
then told me
about my MRI
and
my clumping blood
anyhow
all sorted
right medication
next
#vss365
garlanding the mantle
fashioning poppets and puppets
found stones and feathers
nuts, seeds and pieces of metal
affixing them with arms, legs and faces
from a box of broken doll parts
i had collected
feeling this world
rejected me enough
for me to reject me too #emoetry
garlanding the mantle
fashioning poppets and puppets
found stones and feathers
nuts, seeds and pieces of metal
affixing them with arms, legs and faces
from a box of broken doll parts
i had collected
feeling this world
rejected me enough
for me to reject me too #emoetry
many #shadows
people
I've loved
and wept
when they're gone
animals
dogs
I'm looking
at my shadow
just now
as light
is blocked
by my body
It's my stamp
of being alive
my mother's shadow
is still
on the top shelf
of the lounge
cupboard
contained
in a funeral bag
I can't scatter
#vss365
supposed to
pick up
our new car yesterday
but a series
of unexpected events
happened
and I needed #soothed
first
a blow out in front tyre
then a discussion
with recovery man
you're not buying
one of those
he said
It'll give you
a headache
he said
further due
diligence
deal off
#vss365
darkest thoughts
don't #obfuscate them
bring them into
the light
and they will
disappear
that's what I said
to Hilary
that morning
she pinged
on the back of
the head with
an elastic band
I feel better
she said
I rubbed my head
good
I said
I kidded
myself
about her
#vss365
darkest thoughts
don't #obfuscate them
bring them into
the light
and they will
disappear
that's what I said
to Hilary
that morning
she pinged
on the back of
the head with
an elastic band
I feel better
she said
I rubbed my head
good
I said
I kidded
myself
about her
#vss365
but my
love has
not #waned
for her
fifteen years now
we went
for a drink
last night
and something
to eat
we just enjoy
each other's company
I had the soup
and sandwich deal
she panini
and there
was the old
border collie
lying beside us
we knew
a lot of people
it was fab
#vss365
a casual look
can be the forerunner
of the #cusp
she looked
at me far too long
I looked away
that was
best
or had I looked
at her beforehand
maybe
anyhow
we met up
where I was born
had lunch
we've been happy
ever since
of course
I have some health
problems
now
this cough
brain
#vss365
I lived in a flat
with five others
we were
at University
and loved
our #ruses
we blew
a flatmates eggs
so he would
be surprised
when he tried
to boil them
we put cling film
over the toilet seat
to catch people out
we put washing up liquid
in the sauce bottle
for a laugh
bad
#vss365
my window
to see
the #drizzle
of dawning
I think
I see
the shadow
of the waiting
blackbird
hungry
for whatever
I've put out
but I'm unsure
till there's more light
the eucalyptus tree
is dancing
to the merry tune
of wind
I await
the birds
I've moved the food
further away
sh
sh
#vss365