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@memoryhouse.bsky.social
Musician, barista, business owner.
I’m easy to get along with if you are honest. I can be intense (and too straightforward) but never with ill intention.
I’m easy to get along with if you are honest. I can be intense (and too straightforward) but never with ill intention.
And don't assume I'm unaware of how messed up I must look.
September 11, 2025 at 6:19 PM
And don't assume I'm unaware of how messed up I must look.
Loneliness used to be harrowing. Now it's unbearable. Truly unbearable. Especially at night when I'm doing absolutely nothing, the dark thoughts crowd my mind. It's horrifying to exist in that mindset.
September 11, 2025 at 6:16 PM
Loneliness used to be harrowing. Now it's unbearable. Truly unbearable. Especially at night when I'm doing absolutely nothing, the dark thoughts crowd my mind. It's horrifying to exist in that mindset.
Gotta stop shitting on myself at every turn.
September 11, 2025 at 6:12 PM
Gotta stop shitting on myself at every turn.
Cooking naked is fun until you realize you're not chopping a sausage.
September 11, 2025 at 6:05 PM
Cooking naked is fun until you realize you're not chopping a sausage.
Anyway, in a world needing light, a thread of songs I'm loving so far from the past few years. Nothing before 2020.
September 10, 2025 at 11:15 PM
Anyway, in a world needing light, a thread of songs I'm loving so far from the past few years. Nothing before 2020.
Only thing feeling right in the world is Cardiacs releasing LSD at the end of the week.
September 10, 2025 at 10:59 PM
Only thing feeling right in the world is Cardiacs releasing LSD at the end of the week.
I'm far more interested in not being wrong than in being right. The stuff I'm saying is not about coming off righteous, clever, or a better person. My interest is in people being honest, even if it hurts.
September 10, 2025 at 8:18 PM
I'm far more interested in not being wrong than in being right. The stuff I'm saying is not about coming off righteous, clever, or a better person. My interest is in people being honest, even if it hurts.
When it comes to choosing between the comforts of western life and "the right thing", we choose the former.
September 10, 2025 at 8:17 PM
When it comes to choosing between the comforts of western life and "the right thing", we choose the former.
On Twitter, where I only talk about movies and games, it's become hard to discuss anything without someone trying to shoot you down. Life is not black and white. You can dislike or not love a Palestinian movie and be pro Palestine, as much as you can criticize genocide and not be antisemitic.
September 10, 2025 at 8:10 PM
On Twitter, where I only talk about movies and games, it's become hard to discuss anything without someone trying to shoot you down. Life is not black and white. You can dislike or not love a Palestinian movie and be pro Palestine, as much as you can criticize genocide and not be antisemitic.
I dislike talking about current affairs as if had all the information. Doesn't really stop anyone from doing so, but I just don't feel comfortable making these grand statements of support/hatred for anyone without having at least some facts.
September 10, 2025 at 7:46 PM
I dislike talking about current affairs as if had all the information. Doesn't really stop anyone from doing so, but I just don't feel comfortable making these grand statements of support/hatred for anyone without having at least some facts.
I’m in need of the very thing no one wants to give me: affection.
August 12, 2025 at 12:16 AM
I’m in need of the very thing no one wants to give me: affection.
It's not that I want to look away and pretend none of it is happening, it's that I cannot bear to look anymore. There's only so many photos of dismembered children one can endure. I can't do shit about it.
August 11, 2025 at 4:45 PM
It's not that I want to look away and pretend none of it is happening, it's that I cannot bear to look anymore. There's only so many photos of dismembered children one can endure. I can't do shit about it.
I mean, the news/media have destroyed all semblance of hope. If all we see is disaster, why would we try to leave our homes, or be productive, or find solace in others?
The people who can make a positive difference are the same causing the conflicts.
The people who can make a positive difference are the same causing the conflicts.
August 11, 2025 at 4:43 PM
I mean, the news/media have destroyed all semblance of hope. If all we see is disaster, why would we try to leave our homes, or be productive, or find solace in others?
The people who can make a positive difference are the same causing the conflicts.
The people who can make a positive difference are the same causing the conflicts.
I'll sound incredibly detached and insensitive, even though I'm not. It's kinda the opposite. I just can't bear this world. Tired of Gaza, tired of Epstein, tired of tyranny, tired of fighting just to get out of bed. We shouldn't have to suffer through hell to find a sliver of hope.
August 11, 2025 at 4:38 PM
I'll sound incredibly detached and insensitive, even though I'm not. It's kinda the opposite. I just can't bear this world. Tired of Gaza, tired of Epstein, tired of tyranny, tired of fighting just to get out of bed. We shouldn't have to suffer through hell to find a sliver of hope.
Can I rant about something sensitive? Yes? Thanks.
August 11, 2025 at 4:34 PM
Can I rant about something sensitive? Yes? Thanks.
Started using Proton VPN to watch content unavailable in Chile. Now when I'm not using it, Google still seems to think I'm abroad. Unless I type my city, it keeps showing me results from the US/Canada.
To be fair, I also had to turn off my laptop's SIP to use a program and maybe that's causing it?
To be fair, I also had to turn off my laptop's SIP to use a program and maybe that's causing it?
August 11, 2025 at 4:21 PM
Started using Proton VPN to watch content unavailable in Chile. Now when I'm not using it, Google still seems to think I'm abroad. Unless I type my city, it keeps showing me results from the US/Canada.
To be fair, I also had to turn off my laptop's SIP to use a program and maybe that's causing it?
To be fair, I also had to turn off my laptop's SIP to use a program and maybe that's causing it?
When your dignity is forcibly stripped, your ability to trust goes either numb or away.
August 10, 2025 at 7:57 PM
When your dignity is forcibly stripped, your ability to trust goes either numb or away.
I never imagined I'd enjoy seeing someone who hurt me struggle and suffer. A disgusting sensation of divine justice. I just...she never suffers the consequences, so finding out she's doing poorly does bring me a tiny but of...relief?
August 10, 2025 at 7:36 PM
I never imagined I'd enjoy seeing someone who hurt me struggle and suffer. A disgusting sensation of divine justice. I just...she never suffers the consequences, so finding out she's doing poorly does bring me a tiny but of...relief?
For all the harmful thoughts I have about myself, I never really feel like hurting others. Lately, however, it has morphed into a disproportionate explosion of anger towards people who've hurt me. You might say it's a justifiable anger. It doesn't feel right, though.
August 10, 2025 at 7:30 PM
For all the harmful thoughts I have about myself, I never really feel like hurting others. Lately, however, it has morphed into a disproportionate explosion of anger towards people who've hurt me. You might say it's a justifiable anger. It doesn't feel right, though.
I'm in a considerable amount of pain, physical and emotional. Sciatic nerve injury from fuck knows. Been limping for a few days now. My body's likely responding to a lack of movement and social interaction, it's like it is pushing me to do something.
August 10, 2025 at 7:27 PM
I'm in a considerable amount of pain, physical and emotional. Sciatic nerve injury from fuck knows. Been limping for a few days now. My body's likely responding to a lack of movement and social interaction, it's like it is pushing me to do something.
I can never seem to stay away from here for too long. Part of me considers it a platform where I might exist as a person, not as a bunch of numbers and algorithms.
August 10, 2025 at 7:24 PM
I can never seem to stay away from here for too long. Part of me considers it a platform where I might exist as a person, not as a bunch of numbers and algorithms.
Remind me to stop opening up.
August 1, 2025 at 6:55 PM
Remind me to stop opening up.
Yeah, this is stupid. I can’t take it anymore.
July 30, 2025 at 7:59 PM
Yeah, this is stupid. I can’t take it anymore.
Coming back was a mistake. I shouldn’t be here, and no one wants me here.
July 30, 2025 at 10:22 AM
Coming back was a mistake. I shouldn’t be here, and no one wants me here.