More and more often in this world I feel like not waking up is not the worst outcome

I’m struggling. Really struggling. I want to tal to friends, but it seems like everyone is struggling. So I won’t ask because I hate being a burden. So I struggle alone because I’m convinced that is my path

I’m proud of myself. 30 days no cutting or burning

Ever feel like the effort and energy is not worth it? Like why are people like they are?

Sick of people disrespecting me for being a good person and good friend

Lately I feel like it’s time to just give up

My dreams are very dark the last few weeks . Lots of self harm in them. But I rationally know I don’t want to hurt myself, but what I want to know is why I’m having such awful dreams

Some days being me is fucking exhausting and lonely and awful. But so often I feel I owe the world a happy face because so many are trying to ruin the world right now

My brain is being an ass hole today and there’s no reason for it. However I am feeling taken for granted. But I really just need to lower or eliminate my expectations and this won’t happen.

I like maybe 7 people today. 10 max. The rest take me for granted. They can put on a bib, grab a for and sit down Stan all you can eat buffet of dicks

I think I may just use this platform as a brain dump