Going to try and be more social with people. Online and offline. I need to do more when I can. My health is trash, but I have to do something. I'm always open to talking and meeting people with similar hobbies. I'm just kinda a boring person. 😅

Unfortunately I did not get a win in life. It keeps beating me down. I tried, but my effort was not enough. I have to try and move forward by doing something. ANYTHING. I will just enjoy life unapologetically from now on and not care for what others think. I'm tired, and numb.

I've decided that next year I will just make a major life choice and move across the nation. I have to wait and be cancer free and make sure I take care of things this whole year for it to be possible though. I have to start saving up a lot from now on, but I want to do this.

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#nocturnArt

Slept an hour. Can't fall back asleep. No one to chill with or talk to because it's the middle of the night. I wish I could at least be up at normal times. Lonely hours with my thoughts. Only thing I want to do I can't. Trying to be a bit positive, but it's hard.

Chii 🌸🌺🌷 #art

Came to the gym even though I had no fucking energy. Managed to do my workout. 💪🏽😤

Will you be there?

Just got done with gym. Letting the app guide me. One day I'll be able to do pushups again. 💪🏽😭

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Felt super frustrated, so I went to lift until the pain made me forget. My arms almost went limp. I need to get my body back into good health too.

On the app, click this compass looking deally…go to gaming…then youll see it. Music has one too 🎉

#nocturnArt 🖤💋💄